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//*Wednesday, June 17, 2015*//

It’s been some time since I last blogged.

5 more days and I’ll be a year older. 27 this year, no kidding. My life has been through ups and downs.

Currently working at Jasper’s company. My 10th day here. I am getting used to the environment and people here. Maybe just the job scope and some culture. But everything is still under control. All my bosses and colleagues are very friendly. I hope to be able to learn and grow with them. How long will I be working here exactly, there isn’t an answer at the moment. Let see how everything goes for another 2 months, 2 weeks.

At times I am rather stressed and busy, but there are times I could relax and enjoy some rest after finishing most of the tasks given. Till now, I would say that I do enjoy working here, as compared to my previous jobs at Tradehub. This would be the most “comfortable” job experience over here, at the moment. Just that the pay did affect my motivation to work long at times, but I will try my best to appreciate everything that is happening to me, or around me. Somehow, everything happens for a reason. For this instant, I just hope that everything will go smoothly for me at work, as well as there could be improvement to our friendship.

Less awkward, but our friendship is less friendly as well. I do know of the possible changes, but didn’t really see it coming in such ways. I didn’t predict that I will end up working in this company. I thought everything will be back to how it was, before everything started.

Anyway, 5 more days to my birth date. One year after another, it’s getting dull and quiet each year passed. I just hope I’ll have some time with my family and love ones and maybe with some close friends too. Those usual girlfriends whom never failed to spare a day for me. I sincerely treasure and appreciate them.

How would my life be after 27 years of living? I look forward to the future, but yet am worrying about how it will be like. No one will be able to predict their future, but how we want out future to be, we can try our best to have control over it.

I hope to have more discipline with myself. I want to be more positive in life. I wish I can lead a healthier and meaningful life, doing things like sleeping earlier willingly, and waking up earlier like all other human beings. I hope to have more quality time with my family and love ones, and to be having fun times with my fellow close friends. I want so much, thus, I need to put in a lot of effort in making things happen.

My first year, not having you spending the day with me in the simplest way. It feels weird. But I will get use to it sooner or later. You didn’t just miss that particular day, you’re gone for good. Leading a life without me at all, I wish you all the best, living the life you want. I am really puzzled on how I used to bring you down, but it really seem like your life will be better without me around.

From the day of my 27th, I want to eliminate any person that is of no meaning to me. I just wish to keep my social circle clean and tidy.


Last of all, I am still looking forward to 22nd. HAHAHAHA~



*my heart was broken_


3:31 PM




//*Monday, February 23, 2015*//

有一种勇气叫放弃(丁当)

戏剧 风中奇缘 片尾曲
作词:木兰号aka陈韦伶 & 黄婷
作曲:木兰号aka陈韦伶

有好多事情不需要证明
就像怎么去证明我爱你
如果错过一时就会错过了一生
是否 该更诚实的面对感情

以为时间能溶解你的心
固执的相信有一天你终会清醒
却怎么贴近都只能一个人前进
也许 放开才能抓得更紧

我想我是真的可以
可以放弃 爱你的任性
我可以体谅你的决定
我可以接受我的宿命

我想我是真的爱你
再痛也会 真心地祝福你
爱一个人需要勇气
听说过有一种勇气就叫做放弃

以为时间能溶解你的心
固执的相信有一天你终会清醒
却怎么贴近都只能一个人前进
也许 放开才能抓得更紧

我想我是真的可以
可以放弃 爱你的任性
我可以体谅你的决定
我可以接受我的宿命

我想我是真的爱你
再痛也会 真心地祝福你
爱一个人需要勇气
听说过有一种勇气就叫做放弃

该怪你不够坚强 还是我太怕受伤
情深缘浅 独留天涯海角的眷恋

我想我是真的可以
可以放弃 爱你的任性
我可以体谅你的决定
我可以接受我的宿命

我想我是真的爱你
再痛也会 真心地祝福你
爱一个人需要勇气
听说过有一种勇气就叫做放弃



*my heart was broken_


7:38 PM




//**//

It's the 88th day.

I am not sure if i have gotten over. I seem okay, maybe a little emotional at times when he came into my mind once again.

Time flies...

Still wondering how is he doing. From what i saw, he's doing pretty well, and I'm actually happy for him.

Still getting use to the fact that we are like strangers now. Maybe, it is because we ussd to be really close for the past 13 years. After a night, everything changes.

I will not pester and disturb you living your happy life. This is the least i could do for you right now.

I do not ask for much. Please just allow me to see olen once in awhile.



*my heart was broken_


7:29 PM




//*Wednesday, October 15, 2014*//

最近没什么心情做任何事。。
脑海里濡濡须须出现了好多好难理清楚的问题。。
心情复杂,思绪好混乱。。我不知道该怎么做。。
我需要好多的时间,可是我需要在最短的时间内理清那些问题,把伤害降到最低。
如果我不存在,那该有多好。。
需要和想要,哪一个比较重要?
长或短,有没有分别?
爱情的温度,能持续多久?
我害怕受伤害,但更怕伤害到其他人,尤其是对我很好很好的人,认真的人。。
对不起,一定会受伤的了。现在的我却什么也做不了。因为,我真的很害怕做选择。
贪心不?好讨厌酱的自己。。。
为什么???
天,是在和我开玩笑么?
到底需要受伤几次才能得到幸福,平静?




*my heart was broken_


2:24 PM




//*Sunday, July 13, 2014*//

Sometimes I felt that I'm werid..

I dont like or want to be emotional most of the time, but.. sometimes.. I'll tends to allow myself to be such situations.

Whenever I'm alone.. whenever I'm listening to music where most of them are emtional songs.. I'll start to become emotional, and I kinda enjoy it..

忧伤的感觉,痛。。。但真。。。

By the way, I noticed that I do not have much happy songs in my song list, not because I'm a emo freak, just that I preferred and will appreciate more to those that touches my heart..

我好想能拥有一个知心的知己,
能了解我心里在想什么,
能于我共患难,分享我的喜怒哀乐。。。

这世上,那么多人。。。没有一个真正能了解我的。。。

空虚~

不一定要是伴侣,只要能了解我。。。
太多心事埋藏在心里,有的时候真的觉得我的心,好累。。。

一个拥抱,一句安慰
一个眼神,止住眼泪
心有灵息,背靠着背
只想知道在你心里的地位


=完=



一千万次的泪水, 朱俐静
我的野蛮情人片尾曲
作词:王雅君
作曲:王雅君

那些是非 我已经无力再面对
这些日子过得太心灰
到已无路可退 多伤悲

忍住崩溃 在眼眶里打转几回
你的心盖的那张棉被
却距离得好远 让我爱得好累

Oh~ 擦不掉那很痛的眼泪
关不掉情歌里的暧昧
回忆多么迂回 我认真爱过不后悔

Oh~ 谁没掉过很痛的眼泪
谁的世界里面还有个谁
越要爱得完美 越是心越绞越碎

那些是非 我已经无力再面对
这些日子过得太心灰
到已无路可退 多伤悲

忍住崩溃 在眼眶里打转几回
你的心盖的那张棉被
却距离得好远 让我爱得好累

Oh~ 擦不掉那很痛的眼泪
关不掉情歌里的暧昧
回忆多么迂回 我认真爱过不后悔

Oh~ 谁没掉过很痛的眼泪
谁的世界里面还有个谁
越要爱得完美 越是心越绞越碎

爱是一千万次的泪水
太多美好反变成累赘
我的泪 你是否能够去体会

Oh~ 擦不掉那很痛的眼泪
关不掉情歌里的暧昧
回忆多么迂回 我认真爱过不后悔

Oh~ 谁没掉过很痛的眼泪
谁的世界里面还有个谁
越要爱得完美 越是心越绞越碎

让你去飞 就让爱去
各自 单飞








*my heart was broken_


1:14 AM




//*Saturday, July 12, 2014*//

没那么爱他 范玮琪
专辑:一比一

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯 还是爱
不放心 还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

深呼吸 抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界 那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道 不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下



*my heart was broken_


12:50 AM




//*Sunday, September 02, 2012*//

I found out something again..
  I didn't follow my principles again..

It's my fault to cause myself to fall into this misery again..

Why am I becoming a person that I don't recognise?

I need to stop all these shits.. I need to stop feeling depressed.. cos my heart, can't take it anymore.. no more..

I can't seems to breathe..

I'm lost..
hurt..
heart's broken..
dying..
  sooner..
    soon...



*my heart was broken_


12:13 PM




//*Saturday, August 04, 2012*//

原來他的華文名是這樣寫的。。











*my heart was broken_


7:36 AM