*Beautiful memories will bring me through~ Wonderful people will be remembered.. I am missing Uu~`` Even if it's just 1 minutes, let me stay by your side``..

//*Monday, June 30, 2008*//

I WAN TO QUIT SCH!

I DUN LYK TO STUDY!

I DUN LYK TO GO TO SCH!

I DUN LYK ASS.!

I DUN LYK PROJS.

I DUN LYK LECTURERS!

I DUN LYK EVERYTING!

*my heart was broken_

5:18 PM

//**//

亲爱的~

只有你是我的推动力

没有你在身边，我好像小鸟没了翅膀

一个人的生活

我走的好辛苦

每天都在期待着星期五的到来

我没了方向

满脑子都是你

我没心情做我该做的事

亲爱的~

我好想你。。。

*my heart was broken_

1:57 AM

//*Thursday, June 26, 2008*//

i feel so stress..

i feel so useless..

i feel damn angry can!

facing probs wif projects..

ask lecturers for help.. or juz to inform or acquire someting..

she damn say i pushing all the blame to her? WTH..

u dun understand english is it? so is my fault la? for being sway lyk shit is it?

i damn cannot understand human's mind?

juz becos im scoring lousy marks? juz becos i cant wake up for lessons? juz becos u dun lyk mi? den u fcuking treat mi lyk idiot?

I AM TRYING DAMN HARD OK?

you tink i lyk being treat lyk shit huh?

u tink i lyk being the last in class? scoring bad results? late or nt gg for class?

YOU THINK I LIKE HUH?

i also human okies?

i oso wan do gd to make my parents proud of mi..

i oso wan make my frens feel gd of mi..

i oso wan score well n help my frens instead of askin ppl for help..

LIFE is damn miserable..

im lyk so damn fcuking hate by those idiot!

i damn FCUKING hate tis stupid life i've got..

I WAN AN END TO TIS STUPID IDIOTIC LIFE..

somehow.. i just feel hopeless..

*my heart was broken_

2:09 AM

//*Wednesday, June 25, 2008*//

I AM SO TIRED~

cant slp.. tink i got to get rid of everyting in my mind b4 i cld get to slp..

everyday tink of PROJECTS.. i can faint..

having doin the stupid IBT project since the start of the holiday.. and till nw.. all i got is SHIT!

ALL the ppl is lyk so damn heartless.. none wanted to help us in the project.. tink we're gg to die soon.. summore.. i juz duno hw to do the project *** ***... WTH!

other den tt.. i stil got tons of projects & ass. haven finish..

BMD, HSM tut., FYP, IBT, IBT tut.~

up-coming projects: SAM, HRF and predicted to hav more ltr on.

hais~ life wifout dear is more tough for mi..

days wif him ard.. i alreadi cannot tahan le..

i hate school!

i hate assignments!

i hate projects!

i hate the lecturers!

i hate the people!

i just damn fcuking HATE my poly life~!

nvr ever enjoy my poly life.. onli during the times i meet darling for sch n hm~ for lunch n etc.

not even a DAY, an HR, or a SEC.. i am happi wif tings happening ard mi..

i wan to end tis kinda life.. ASAP!

i juz wan to fcuking hack care everyting!

leave the sch! leave everyting behind..

i wanted to run away from all the problems i encounter..

i wan PEACE!

im desperate to run over to BL to find dear..

i nd his support..

im breaking dwn any secs..

but i noe none of tis cld come true..

i stil got to study..

got to finish up all my ass. n projects..

got to attend lessons and see those scukers' faces..

got to be OUT-CAST by ppl..

got to be lyk shit..

my life is juz lyk SHIT!

y is tt so? Y la!

i wan to slp..

*my heart was broken_

2:34 AM

//*Sunday, June 22, 2008*//

today is my 22nd bday~

really thx all my lovely frens for their wishes~

juz luv them so much! awws~~~

ytd went out wif darling.. 1stly to do proj @ NLB.. den went soup spoon for lunch n darling bought ear rings for mi! awws~ so beautiful.. realli thx honey! i luv them lots lots~ ^^

den went shopping ard n back hm to rest! haha..

today went out wif SY & AS today.. they are juz so sweet okies!

before tt meet darling for lunch.. he wanted to acc. mi to JE as i hav no time to meet him ltr on b4 he go back to camp.. realli sad.. but sry darling.. onli tis wkend.. next wkend onwards will be all urs okies? haha..

before meeting my boy~ i saw mq @ gombak station platform.. haha~ he was gg sentosa.. so QIAO! den we took train to batok.. darling board n i introduce mq to my darling~ *abit awkard* nvm.. haha.. =)

den headed to JE n byebye to mq~ went to JE entertainment to hunt for food~ haven contact as & sy but so QIAO again~ saw them @ lvl 1.. so bought an egg and went up to kbox..

slack awhile to acc. darling a lil. longer.. den got to go in le~ so nt wanted to say gd bye to my honey~ misses him lots.. =(

went in to sing K @ 2pm~ lalalala~ till 7pm!

was hav lots of fun inside.. sing lots of songs.. play~ lyk lil. kids.. juz realli ENJOY! ya cannot noe hw fun it is.. oso cant describe de! =P

AND I WANTED TO THX AS & SY FOR THE PRESENT N THE COMPANY TODAY! LUV YA!

den~ supposingly meeting AF for dinner.. but tink last min. cancelled le~ so.. its ok~ sy, as & mi went to dellifrance @ JE to hav our dinner! omg~ the service thr is juz so CMI n it spoiled my mood for a sec. but everyting is stil alright as we r happily chattin ourselves (gals talk).. n we r gg to meet dy n yq ltr on for POOL session..

finish dinner n reaches bt. timah @ ard 8 plus pm. den waited awhile n went in to play 1st while waiting for yq to come.. got trash by DY! he's a pro pooler.. LOL.. *sy smiling happily nw*..

yq came after an hr ltr.. den his turn to play wif dy le.. the 3 of us was bz taking fotos! muhahaha~ lyk 10yrs din take fotos tgt le.. we take lyk duno hw mani fotos! *HappY*..

anyways~ acutalli JX n WJ wana come find us de.. but i cldnt wait till they come.. cos got to rush hm cut cake wif family.. told them i will be hm by 1030pm. but i reaches ard 11sharp.. sis's bday wanted to stay to cut cake wif us de.. cos too late he went hm le~ realli sry jie fu! =X

anyways.. thx ah! so fortunate.. feel so xing fu when cutting cake wif my family.. tot it take juz 10 mins to finish everyting.. but i luv them!! *muacks*..

however, suddenly, when im cutting cake.. i feel so sad.. darling wasnt ard mi.. nvr once he was beside to cut cake wif mi.. was hoping every yr.. misses him.. awws!

anyways.. i got a happy news oso!

got a msg frm a v.special from.. which makes mi feel much happi again~

awws! nvr tot he wld msg mi le.. cos gg to over le my bday.. the v.last min.! his msg came! LOL. shhh~ anyways.. realli thx lots! =)

yea~~ will upload mani fotos ltr on!

to be continue~```

*my heart was broken_

11:39 PM

//*Wednesday, June 18, 2008*//

没有你！

我什么都没办法做！

我该怎么办？

教教我？我快崩溃了。。

快开学了。。你快回到我身边吧？

我好想念你。。

*my heart was broken_

2:17 AM

//*Sunday, June 15, 2008*//

18th Jun'08

Happy Birthday to Angela~ =)
Happy Father's Day to dad n all fathers ard the world~
Darling is back to came today, starting from tml will be a tough journey for him~ hope he can adapt well and will come bak healthy and lively every wkends~

i am v.lucky, darling was able to come bak the 1st wk of NS.. and he will call mi every night..
getting abit use to it alreadi.. though stil quite sad abt it.. but i'll be alright i guess.. fate cant be chance, so i got to accept it.. face it.. everyting will be fine..

met him ytd n today.. happi yet sad..
i feel tt time isnt enuff.. acc. him to buy stuffs tt he nd for NS.. walk ard westmall.. den head bak hm~ did nth much.. chit chat here n thr.. hug awhile.. times up! he got to go bak..
today meet darling for movie.. Kung-fu Panda! haha.. it was a nice movie.. v.cute & funny.. after tt, head back hm again.. den darling has to go hm and pack up his stuffs.. back to camp~

yea~ went dwn to dinner for father's day after tt.. den head back hm to watch television.. den~ head back here again! boring life yea? NO~ gg to start my project tml.. haven being doin anyting since i finish my CTs.. slackin.. sad.. lazy.. tired.. relax.. for the whole 1 wk! =S

anyways.. one more wk sch will reopen.. projects due.. new start for the next half a sem.. got to be more serious.. JY obs!

*i'll be missing you every moments..

*my heart was broken_

11:13 PM

//*Monday, June 09, 2008*//

寂寞人生! 开始计算！

从今天开始，我的一个人过了~

独自一人，我能熬过去吗？

好害怕。。真的好害怕。。

没有他的日子，好难熬~

我的时间多的数不尽。

我的心，停止跳动。

一想起他的离去，我无法自拔，眼泪流了下来。

我快没呼吸的勇气了。

十多天的分离，让我陷入死亡状态。

dear~ teach me. how can i do to feel better? to be brave to carry on myself alone?

*my heart was broken_

11:54 PM

//**//

现在是12.10am。他睡了。最后的一天，我的心，随着时间，慢慢停止。

终于，最伤心，最害怕，最不想这一天的到临，发生了。我们有勇气面对。

我想哭

我想闹

我要耍脾气

我要任性

我无奈的表情

我伤心我难过

我迷路了！

不懂回家的路

我懂得照顾自己

我需要你

你懂不懂？

我讨厌着无聊的社会

没有你的每一天~

快乐离我好遥远~

*my heart was broken_

12:09 AM

//*Thursday, June 05, 2008*//

WAD HAPPENED?

i tot today sld be the happiest day of the wk?
ened up become the most fcuking day of the wk.
wad wrong hav i done again?
i tot i hav finally finish the 5 torturing CTs and sld be relaxing, happilly enjoying myself?
yet wad i've got frm u is black face, scolding for walking ard WM, lyk being dislike by u for nth?
I AM TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED! my heart is dying off at any sec.
i realli cannot imagine. tis wld be wad i hav got from u for putting so much effort.
didnt u noe wad i nd is juz a few hrs of relaxation? n for wad i noe, i tink tt u tink i sldnt hav tt n was nt tinking for u. i am being selfish as u hav ur NS stuffs to settle yet i am thr askin u to acc. mi for lunch and a walk ard WM? yea.. hw i noe u hav wad stuffs to settle? i asked u n u dinr reply. when e moment i step out of the lift, when i saw u, u alreadi giv mi tt fcuking back face! being stress lyk wad shit.. didnt every men in s'pore has to go in NS? y didnt they treat their love ones lyk tt? n y sld i stand all tis? becos i m wrong to be ur GF is it? den tell mi la!
i tink i sld be crazy. sldnt i be gg out to hav fun after all the torturing?
WTH! i m damn tired for wad i hav got frm u..
n i damn regret for askin u to acc. mi study.. acc. mi today!
if i noe.. i will tell myself to be independent. i tot i can depend on u for the last one wk.
I AM WRONG! FCUKING WRONG OK!
i hope i didnt make the wrong choice.

*my heart was broken_

1:29 PM

//*Sunday, June 01, 2008*//

what's my dream for future?

duno.

*my heart was broken_

3:13 AM

//**//

someone said my blog was a sad blog. HAHA.
so~ i am gg to blog nice tings in again! to make my blog prettier!

anyways~ though today was a boring day.
but i had great fun at nite.
played viwawa wif shang n sally.
den chatted online wif some frens.
saw him onlined. haha. had more funny chats wif shang.
studied abit (1chapt) for HRF today oso. though it was obvious nt enuff. but at least i did study someting.
tml gg to fetch dear at chinatown. hope i can wake up at 9am to study abit. =)
but im sad tt i might nt be able to join shang they all for DY's bday. =(
hope he lyks the present we bought for him! hahaha.
tml is the start of my hell period.
i am gg to start studyin from tml onwards all the way till wed nite!
i must endure! i m sure i can make it no matter wad! 0.O?

hmm~ suddenly feels emo again! LOL.
mayb the song i am listening to nw makes mi emo.
hope CT wk can pass faster. but i hope it pass slower oso.
cos after tt. no nd to say. said so mani times.
i hope time can stop at sat!
sun his parents comin bak le. v.fast! time files. =(

i hope.. i hope.. i hope.. nvr happens.
reality is cruel.

*my heart was broken_

1:39 AM