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//*Wednesday, May 28, 2008*//


I NEED A HUMAN CLOCK!

TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.

I JUST DUN HAV SELF-DISCIPLINE.

SO FCUKING PISSED!

I HOPE I WUN GET DEBAR FROM SCHOOL.

IM IN DEEP SHIT NW.



*my heart was broken_


1:29 PM




//*Monday, May 26, 2008*//

FUCKING HATE R/S.
FUCKING HATE THOSE WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND THEIR LOVE ONES WHICH IS ALWAYS GIVING IN TO THEM AND LOVE THEM MORE THAN THEY DO.
FUCKING HATE THOSE WHO THINK THAT THEY'RE ALWAYS RIGHT, WHEN THEY'RE ALWAYS WRONG.
FUCKING HATE BEING AN IDIOT.
I FUCKING HATE YOU! GO AND DIE!
*remember how you treat me. what you have said to me. you don't deserve my love. taking me for granted. wasting my time. treating me like an idiot. i will not love you ANYMORE!



*my heart was broken_


8:23 PM




//**//

I HATE MYSELF! really hate myself to the core..
what have i done?
i broke my promises to myself..
i broke my goals..
i got myself into deep trouble.. WTH!
why must i like that?
y cant i wake up?
i sld hav slp real early on sun nite.. ARGH!
one last time BS!
no more chances i tell u..
if u lyk tt.. QUIT SCH LA! =(



*my heart was broken_


12:31 PM




//*Sunday, May 25, 2008*//



Hmm~

i wanted to do a list of tings wif honey.. =S

-singing session
-movie session
-swimming session
-shopping session
-eating sessions
-studying sessions
- etc. etc.

before he go in NS..
ahhh~ i feel so no-time-left to do all these tings wif honey..
alreadi can feel the loneliness i am gg to face when he's inside..
alreadi started to feel v.v.sad..
i cant imgaine life alone.. wld be damn miserable.. helpless..
i hope.. pray.. wish tt i cld pass thru tis big exam god has given us..
bright future ahead of us after tis torture..
i am still not mentally prepared.. whenever i tink of honey gg in ns.. i lyk cant breathe..
i guess i m gona miss him terribly when he's inside..

gona treasure every chance to meet him..
created lots of memories..
so tt when he's inside.. i can stil feel tt he's ard mi..
giving mi courage for mi to carry on my life.. to face all the problems ahead..

*i love you honey.. deeply..



*my heart was broken_


11:55 PM




//*Friday, May 23, 2008*//





YES!!!

mama & papa is BACK!
v.v.happi! acutalli miss them lots.. they went for a short holiday, is back just nw. stil bought back for us our fav. ROTI PRATA! hee~ but im so full! shall eat it tml morning! yeeeepppy~!!

anyways~ today was a gd start of my life.. i was on time for HSM lect.! =D wasnt late n did listen to class. hope tis can continue for the rest of my poly life! i will try my BEST!
den den den~ as per normal.. lessons till evening.. -.-" den BACK HOME!

~.* home sweet home *.~ i love to go hm everyday! ASAP! away from tis torturing hell! nvr gg to go back to tis stupid poly after i graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea~ den was relax time.. v.v.tired... =(
sudden arrangement! NANA N ESTHER came gombak to find mi after their swimming session @ batok pool.. after peeping at nana's "fatty boom boom".. LOL..
they pack subway all the way here.. juz to meet mi! haha. i am v.glad! miss them lots too. haven beem meeting them since 1 or 2 wks ago i guess.. they r v.sweet frens! =)

as usual.. tok n tok! den~~~ FOTOS time! was realli havin a crazy time takin fotos @ the coffee shop somewhr near my hse.. was damn PAISEH can! LOL. cannot tahan.. laugh non-stop.. hahaha! BUT IT WAS REALLY V.V.FUN! i do enjoy it.. =D (above)

den we chat n chat, slack n slack, take fotos here n thr.. so fast.. 10 plus alreadi! they r gg hm~ so... CYA SOON GALS! *muacks``

chatted wif honey awhile, he went to slp le.. miss him terribly after knowing tt he is gg in NS soon! cldnt bear to nt able to meet him often v.soon.. i was damn damn SAD can! =(
gg to meet honey tml after his wk. hasnt seen him for 2 days alreadi. I MISS U LA~

i am gg to grab hold of every chances tt i left to create tons n tons of memories b4 u go in for NS! hee~ "Baby, i need you so much!".. * i love you...



*my heart was broken_


12:38 AM




//*Thursday, May 22, 2008*//


碧诗。。你啊！要勇敢！
可以吧？太习惯有他在我身边，其实我很崔罗吧？
怎么说，我也依靠了他六年，说要独立，我需要时间。。但也是该长大了。。
这首歌，表达了我对他所想要表达的。。

九十九次我愛他
少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差

九十九次我愛他
少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在(我)嘴裡溶化

加油咯！=（
我好喜欢这部戏！



*my heart was broken_


12:36 AM




//*Wednesday, May 21, 2008*//


HAI~ totally disappointed wif myself... for nt being responsible... tink i can go die la... as soon as possible... hw can i get rid of all the probs i hav... making myself and also my frens to be disappointed for wad i have created...

tml~ 22nd of may... abt one more wk to our CT. hav been nt gg for sch for so mani times... gettin rdy to fail liao rite ONG BI SHI? feeling sick n tired of being sick... wth is my body havin such probs everytime? tink is my metality makin myself sick... i cant continue lyk tt... but is it too late alreadi? i feel so lost...

anyways, he's gg in on 10th Jun... nt able to pass... being dependent on him too much i guess... im so sad n scared... i scared tt i cant carry on my life as normal when he's nt ard mi so the comin 2 yrs... im scared of loneliness... scared of havin to face all e probs myself... scared of losing him... tink i totally hav no confidence in myself... being a failure for so long... hw can i change my life...

tis sem. means a lot to mi... got to pass tis sem. in order to catch up the rest... in order nt to repeat another sem. in order to improve my life... etc etc... but i am nt doin enuff to make all tis come true... kept falling sick... duno wad has happened... i tink emotionally wise im always sick... hais... WTH!

i got to be brave... got to change... i got to do someting to prove myself... im feeling v.sorry to those who is always supporting mi... and also v.sorry to my fren who has been helpin me all along... i got to change...

ya... no more takin steps by steps... always giving excuses rite OBS... got to wake up le gal...



*my heart was broken_


8:20 PM




//*Friday, May 09, 2008*//

51 words

Speed test

195 points, so you achieved position 210878 of 464743 on the ranking list.

You type 286 characters per minute.

You have 51 correct words and you have 2 wrong words.




*my heart was broken_


11:49 PM




//*Thursday, May 01, 2008*//


Having some advises from my dearest frens..
i'm feeling beta rite nw... =)
xie xie ni men ah! you ni men zhen hao...
realli treasure frenship lots... cos i believe tt frenship can last longer den a r/s...
and frenship might be even more true den compared wif a r/s... but for certain type of frenship ofcos... and i'm glad tt god acutalli send ya to be frens wif mi...

having noe someting which i nvr tot tt it wld actualli happens...
but im glad tt everyting is perfectly fine after which everyone is filled wif happiness rite nw... =)
as for my current probs., lyk she said: nd to compromise each other, lyk he said: i nd some rest!... so~ i will calm myself dwn to help myself see further...

anyways... wo yao qu xiu xi le! wan an~ =D



*my heart was broken_


1:45 AM