//*Wednesday, November 28, 2007*//
hmm~ tink im juz fated to be a loner?
sometimes i juz tried v.hard to be sociable to everyone.. but it seems lyk everyting didnt go in the way i wan it to be.. though sometimes it's alright too..
i dun nd them to treat me lyk their best fren.. juz a normal classmates.. frankly speaking.. i felt so left out at times.. i juz cldnt control my feelings.. n hav to admit tt im upset.. which i told myself nt to be so.. cos it's acutalli nth impt..
but i juz wan to noe e reason y.. it is becos im nt their classmates? cos im nt always tgt wif them.. did nt spent enuff time.. or cos they juz tink im a slacker?
anyways.. i feel beta nw.. tink im tinking too much..
acutalli i oso din nt sld tt im a hardwking student plus a gd fren too.. yup.. tt's fate..
*my heart was broken_
4:16 PM
//*Monday, November 19, 2007*//
Hmm~
finally.. i was thr for ABT lect's n tutorial.. =)
was absence for 3 wks of lects n 2 wks of tuts.. cis i overslept.. n was sick 1 of e wk.. felt so guilty.. so decided to pull myself up no matter wad.. n i did it~! LOL..
yea.. wasnt' feeling v.well tis morning.. on e way to sch on e bus.. my gastric pain suddenly come knock on my stomach.. "hello hello? forgotten me le? i am here to remind u to eat ur breakfast!".. n yea~ after tt tremedous pain i had.. i went to hav my breakfast.. duno wana make it worse.. haha~
sch was too boring for mi.. kept on wana fall aslp in class.. but i DID NOT slp at all.. proud of my determination! o.O? guess so? hahaha..
anyways.. everyting is pretty fine nw wif mi n him.. cos i juz hav to face e fact? nthing is gona change even if i'm damn upset.. so.. i'll let tings be as it is.. =)
argh~~ juz nw so got e feel to blog de.. but my sis suddenly come NAG~ at mi.. hais.. tink i'll stop here! -.-"
finally.. i was thr for ABT lect's n tutorial.. =)
was absence for 3 wks of lects n 2 wks of tuts.. cis i overslept.. n was sick 1 of e wk.. felt so guilty.. so decided to pull myself up no matter wad.. n i did it~! LOL..
yea.. wasnt' feeling v.well tis morning.. on e way to sch on e bus.. my gastric pain suddenly come knock on my stomach.. "hello hello? forgotten me le? i am here to remind u to eat ur breakfast!".. n yea~ after tt tremedous pain i had.. i went to hav my breakfast.. duno wana make it worse.. haha~
sch was too boring for mi.. kept on wana fall aslp in class.. but i DID NOT slp at all.. proud of my determination! o.O? guess so? hahaha..
anyways.. everyting is pretty fine nw wif mi n him.. cos i juz hav to face e fact? nthing is gona change even if i'm damn upset.. so.. i'll let tings be as it is.. =)
argh~~ juz nw so got e feel to blog de.. but my sis suddenly come NAG~ at mi.. hais.. tink i'll stop here! -.-"
*my heart was broken_
10:46 PM
//*Sunday, November 18, 2007*//
what wrong have i done?
you just love to shout at me?
if you don't like to do the things i have asked you to help..
or if you do not want to meet me.. just let me know..
i really have enough of all this shouting.. quarrellings..
can you just give me a break? i am very very tired..
i don't know i still can endure for how long..
is this really what you want?
*freak*
~.[ zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui wo nu li zai wan hui ]._~
you just love to shout at me?
if you don't like to do the things i have asked you to help..
or if you do not want to meet me.. just let me know..
i really have enough of all this shouting.. quarrellings..
can you just give me a break? i am very very tired..
i don't know i still can endure for how long..
is this really what you want?
*freak*
~.[ zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui wo nu li zai wan hui ]._~
*my heart was broken_
1:56 PM
//*Friday, November 16, 2007*//
don't understand why..
what has happened? guess i did something wrong again..
cause i din wait for him? cause i neglect his feelings?
aishang's dad is coming to fetch her fomr school.. i asked if i we could tag along.. cause i'm pretty tired and lazy to take bus back home from school.. holding the heavy lappy and weren't really feeling well today.. and she asked her dad.. her dad is ok with it.. so there, we waited for him at the atrium.. which he told me he need around 10 mins more since i last called him..
when i called him again as aishang's dad is reaching soon, i asked him whether he is done with his stuffs alreadi? and his answer was NO! so.. i asked him does he want to come along or to start back in school to do his stuffs or can he like do it other day.. he weren't sure.. so he asked me to go home first.. he will call me back later..
aishang's dad was good enough.. he send me back all the way to gombak mrt station.. when i just alight, he called me.. soundly still alright..
he asked me where am i and blah blah blah.. suddenly.. he asked why i didn't wait for him.. i was pretty guilty also.. so i tried to apologise and "hong" him.. instead of feeling better.. he suddenly started to be very angry and shouted at me.. why? what did i do wrong? for being good to you?
after all.. you are busy with your work.. i am alright that you acutally wanted to stay back in school to finish up your stuffs.. you chose to come find me and now what?
i am so disappointed.. he acutalli shouted at me loudly.. which i acutalli did nothing wrong?
i am so damn tired.. i'm tired of quarreling with you for small little stuffs.. tired of you being my bf but have nothing much to talk to me about? tired of you being impaitent when i am feeling down or angry.. which if the situation is you, however hard i tried to make you feel better.. nothing happens but you got even angry then before.. tired of listening you shouting at me like as if i am your enemy.. tired of thinking till my head is cracking whether you acutalli love me?
i am just very very tired.. i don't know how long can i endure this relationship..
i am just a very normal person.. i just need the basic love like every other women needs..
i just feel......................................................................
what has happened? guess i did something wrong again..
cause i din wait for him? cause i neglect his feelings?
aishang's dad is coming to fetch her fomr school.. i asked if i we could tag along.. cause i'm pretty tired and lazy to take bus back home from school.. holding the heavy lappy and weren't really feeling well today.. and she asked her dad.. her dad is ok with it.. so there, we waited for him at the atrium.. which he told me he need around 10 mins more since i last called him..
when i called him again as aishang's dad is reaching soon, i asked him whether he is done with his stuffs alreadi? and his answer was NO! so.. i asked him does he want to come along or to start back in school to do his stuffs or can he like do it other day.. he weren't sure.. so he asked me to go home first.. he will call me back later..
aishang's dad was good enough.. he send me back all the way to gombak mrt station.. when i just alight, he called me.. soundly still alright..
he asked me where am i and blah blah blah.. suddenly.. he asked why i didn't wait for him.. i was pretty guilty also.. so i tried to apologise and "hong" him.. instead of feeling better.. he suddenly started to be very angry and shouted at me.. why? what did i do wrong? for being good to you?
after all.. you are busy with your work.. i am alright that you acutally wanted to stay back in school to finish up your stuffs.. you chose to come find me and now what?
i am so disappointed.. he acutalli shouted at me loudly.. which i acutalli did nothing wrong?
i am so damn tired.. i'm tired of quarreling with you for small little stuffs.. tired of you being my bf but have nothing much to talk to me about? tired of you being impaitent when i am feeling down or angry.. which if the situation is you, however hard i tried to make you feel better.. nothing happens but you got even angry then before.. tired of listening you shouting at me like as if i am your enemy.. tired of thinking till my head is cracking whether you acutalli love me?
i am just very very tired.. i don't know how long can i endure this relationship..
i am just a very normal person.. i just need the basic love like every other women needs..
i just feel......................................................................
*my heart was broken_
5:15 PM
//*Thursday, November 01, 2007*//.jpg)
HOHO~
guess whu is sitting beside mi nw?
u will nvr noe?
i'ts our most beautiful princess........................................
da dang! "miss chua aka mrs otah pretty woman!"
haha.. jealous ba?
i guess i am too bored..
or mayb i tink i too high liao!!
i saw his frenster!!!
eeks.. disgusting lo!!! argh~~~~~~~
i am gona update soon again..
tis is juz a trail!
LOL..
guess whu is sitting beside mi nw?
u will nvr noe?
i'ts our most beautiful princess........................................
da dang! "miss chua aka mrs otah pretty woman!"
haha.. jealous ba?
i guess i am too bored..
or mayb i tink i too high liao!!
i saw his frenster!!!
eeks.. disgusting lo!!! argh~~~~~~~
i am gona update soon again..
tis is juz a trail!
LOL..
*my heart was broken_
3:30 PM
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