//*Saturday, February 24, 2007*//tml den blog..
juz hav much feelings for tis song today..
cant slp.. Zzz..
就算轻轻的呼吸心还是感觉痛
没有你的日子里我变得好脆弱
轻轻一碰仿佛就要飞走
口袋里的双手曾被你温柔紧握
布满思念的空气该怎么去摆脱
天灰的好寂寞
快乐悲伤被你左右
说一千遍我爱你都不够
就这样不贪心我慢慢的走
只要有你陪着我再苦我能承受
说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
有一天我总会看见幸福的彩虹
相信你给的承诺
我等候
*my heart was broken_
2:47 AM
//*Thursday, February 15, 2007*//hmM~ last day of my paper, my exams finished today..
so damn happi.. nth can explain my feelings..
when hm wif him.. to my hse.. did nth.. but slp.. cos i m realli v.tired.. wake up at 2 plus.. went to play wif my cousins at e next blk.. whr my grandparents lives..
wow~ they were so naughty.. i gt a bit out of my patient.. realli had to control them.. so naughty dun listen to us.. damn i went bak hm after 2 hrs of torture by them.. LOL.. although a bit angry.. but tis ok.. they r stil young..
anyway~ i went bak hm my n he go hm after i went hm.. cos i was damn angry at e pt of time so i went hm wifout him..
was bak at hm le.. someting make mi v.pissed.. e mosquito! WTH.. kept bitting mi~ duno y!! i've gt 10 over mosquito bits le leh.. damn itchy n pain lo! i m gg crazy v soon.. haiss..
was alone at hm nw cos parents went to visit my father's mother.. =)
hav to hav my dinner by my own.. tink gona eat some rubbish to fill up my stomache.. v.lazy to buy or cook.. wad a bad day for mi..
hmm~ ytd celebrate v.day wif hsia.. went orchard 1st.. wana buy e shoes i c for a period of time.. nvr try b4.. ended up nt nice when i try.. so in e end go orchard waste time onli.. cos cant find anyting tt we wana buy.. summore was scolded by a sales woman when we did nt intend to buy her clothes.. LOL.. e world has changed..
den we head towards bugis.. we wana buy inner wear for cny.. cos new r buy wear new inner wear.. LOL.. den we shop ard c whether can find any shoes for us.. or even other tings we wld wan to buy.. haha..
but no.. we onli managed to buy 2 sets of inner wear..
den we realli v.hungry le.. so we went to e place whr all restaurants were at.. wow~ every restaurants were flooded wif ppl.. queue were long.. place were crowded.. OMG~ we went to look for other places which we hope tt thr will hav places for us to sit dwn n eat.. e ans is NO!
den we went bak to previously whr we were at.. we went to pasta mania to hav our dinner.. LOL.. i waited for ard 15 mins den is my turn to order our food.. n e food came quite late oso.. ended up we hav our dinner at 9pm! Zzz..
after tt we went hm le lo.. cos most shops had closed alreadi.. summore so late le today i stil gt a morning paper.. LOL.. i din studied much actualli..
wad a horrible day i had today when i did nt noe hw to ans those qns.. GREAT!
yup.. rainin nw.. gg to take a nap le.. tired!
*my heart was broken_
5:15 PM
//*Tuesday, February 13, 2007*//haiss.. i realli blog until so damn happi le.. ended up..
WAD E FREAKING HELL IS THIS MAN? Y ALWAYS LYK TT? WAN PPL TO BLOG DEN ERASE OFF AGAIN.. WAOKAO!
nvm..
briefly..
again..
losing all e moods..
bloggin again..
well.. nvr studied much today(feb,12)..
cant memorise much tings..
damn tired n stress..
nth much in mind..
chatted wif yee n shang on fone for few mins..
n him for some time..
online doin nth..
come online blog..
yup..
tt's all..
TOTALLY NO MOOD AT ALL..
*freak..
juz nw stil wanted to end wif a smile*
WTH!
buzzing off...
*my heart was broken_
12:58 AM
//*Sunday, February 11, 2007*//hmm~ din blog for few days le.. cos last 2 days were having exams.. stress n lazy.. hais!
i tink i din did well for my exams.. cos i din study much.. realli no mood n fan!
1st time in my mind is my freaking bro.. i hate him lo! giving my family much troubles.. REALLI! he is hopeless le.. at least for my pt of view.. so im nt gg to care abt him anymore.. cos he beat mi on fri! tt makes mi crazy! WTH!
a guy beatting a gal.. a bro beating his sis.. damn pissed off!
haiss.. dun tok abit tt *f**ker!
anyway.. went to shang hse to help her dyed her hair to black! wow~ she look nice de lo! haha.. realli! shang! is nice de.. dun worry.. no nd scared u look cheena okies? =X
yup.. den today went out wif hsia.. go shop for my shoes for cny.. ended up.. nvr buy oso.. cos lyk nt v.nice.. haiyoyo! no nice shoes for mi to buy lo! i die liao.. gt $ oso no hav tings for mi to buy lo.. y lyk tt? y so sway!
ya.. juz reached hm nt long.. v.tired! nobody online to chat wif mi oso.. damn bored! WTH! y so bored ah.. stayin alive is such a bored ting!
*miserable..
*my heart was broken_
10:45 PM
//*Wednesday, February 07, 2007*//what makes 2 person to be tgt? to become a couple?
wad will happened if both of them comes frm 2 diff. world?
wad will happened if they realised they dun suit each other after being tgt for mani yrs?
wad will happened if they cant communicate wif each other?
i nd an ans.. hw? wad sld i do?
being tgt for mani yrs.. slowly i realised we r ppl frm 2 diff. world.. his characters, mindset, e way he treat tings, e way he live, etc. is totally diff. frm mine.. we often quarrel cos of e differences we had.. he dun agree to mi n i dont agree to him either..
and tis is nt e onli prob we faced.. we cant communicate wif one another.. tis is e big prob we had.. cant communicate means everyting is over..
words cant realli explain my feelings.. anyway noone will understand oso..
im juz deeply discourage of having relationship.. im tired n scared of it..
2 person.. 2 stranger become couple.. is nt a simple ting..
2 frens become couple.. might b easier.. but nt e best situation oso..
y muz human beings have such ting col 'love'?
it doesnt onli giv ppl happiness.. it also brings unhappiness to some ppl rite?
i dunnoe whether im fortunate or im nt..
i'm in a lost.. lost in a maze.. n as if i can nvr get out frm e maze foreva..
*my heart was broken_
6:16 PM
//**//ooo~ tiring day i had ytd! (6th feb)...
wake up quite early in da morning.. ard 8am.. meet him.. den went to gombak mac to study n oso to hav my breakfast! yup.. had my breakfast.. but nvr study at all! i cant concentrate.. at 1st he was studying when im having my breakfast.. but i disturbed him after i finished my breakfast! LOL.. i cant study.. no mood! n oso lazy.. haiss.. hw ah? exam is so near.. 3 more days ltr.. n one more one day rite after tis 1st exam.. n i stil can play ard.. =X
anyways.. after he kinda disturbed by mi.. he oso no mood to study le.. so we went bak to my hse.. to play game! LOL.. *Zzz
dilly dally.. time files.. 2pm.. i was meeting she hsia at 3pm*.. so i went to prepare.. haha.. n he continued to play..
bathed n washed n everyting i hav to do.. i went out n he went hm.. ltr at 4pm.. he is meeting ks n tim to play tennis.. *wow!
yup.. met hsia.. we went shopping! for our CNY clothes..
LOL.. hsia finally bought e shirt she aimed v.long ago when she was broke at e pt of time when she wanted to buy.. wahaha.. at a shop selling mani jeans n clothes.. n i bought a jeans thr oso! although i din realli wanted to buy tt jeans.. ut e auntie thr so "ri qing" lo.. i cant ren xin to reject.. summore i nd to buy jeans.. so i bought it.. *doubting i sld buy anot.. LOL..
anyway.. after we went shopping.. we went to PM to hav out dinner.. *full.. damn full lo.. we eat until we wana vomit le.. cant walk properly.. WAHAHA!
yup.. after eat finish le.. all da shops alreadi closin liao.. no choice.. we head towards e mrt station.. orchard mrt station! duno hw we walk.. acutalli sumerset mrt station ish nearer lo.. but we walk n walk.. walk while chatting.. ended up at orchard mrt station..!
nvm la.. we hav plently of time to spare.. realli plentiful.. we took e red line hm instead of e green line.. frm orchard to gombak.. summore we took mrt frm orchard to marina 1st.. den we wait for e mrt to u-turn bak to gombak.. LOL..
when i reached hm was alreadi 11 plus.. gg to 12pm le.. LATE sia!
yup.. 1st ting i reached hm.. i was called to my parents rm.. "why ur hp bill so ex.?" they asked..
i was wondering oso.. cos.. sldnt b so ex. (*although it was onli $72).. but to mi oso abit ex. la.. cos was trying to cut dwn on e usage of my hp le.. but stil 70 plus.. OMG!
haiss.. cut-short de diary of wad had happend to me ytd.. so tired.. no enegry to continue n write a interesting one.. gg slp lo!
*my heart was broken_
1:34 AM
//*Tuesday, February 06, 2007*//5th feb'07
haha~ after bloggin i'll b gg to bed le.. =)
today went out meet sy n as again.. LOL..
we hav been meeting these few days.. almost everyday we meet up.. duno they will feel fan anot..
today realli thz sy n as for acc. mi.. cos today acutalli meet to acc. mi buy clothes for CNY.. ended up nvr buy again cos nt suitable n v.ex sia la!
yup den we went to btbatok mac to hav some chat n oso to hav ice-cream tt shang hav to treat us as she was late for our meeting! LOL..
our rules: whoever late frm nw one, 1st time: $1/each, 2nd time: $2/each, and it goes on.. LOL.. scaRY rite? i dun dare to late again! wahahaha..
acutalli cos i no small change la.. i will return u de shang.. no worry.. we nt so bad.. i jkjk onli.. dun take it seriously ok? lol.. i'll rmb hw much to return u de.. wahahah! (*incase i late next time =X)
anyways, we took so mani idiotic pics today at mac.. =X
it was cute de lo.. but look so funny.. mayb will upload some for ya to c.. cos i lyk seldom upload pics of activities we had.. sy n as was complaining.. so~ wahahah tis time rd i will upload! =P
sinyee was "acting cute" =X wahahah
shang! u lyk tis foto? LOL
mi n sy! *smiles
mi n as! *funny la.. LOL
we were realli having fun at mac.. so funny tt i kept laughing non stop lo! WAHAHAH.. u noe hw much more funny fotos tt i shot? but cant reveal.. ltr some people is gg to kill mi! =X
anyways, after meeting them till 4 plus, i went to meet vann at westmall oso.. she was kinda sad these few weeks therefore as a fren.. i muz acc. her! LOL we went in wm to walk again which i did previously wif as n sy liao =X haha. den we chit chat abit n went to MOS burger to hav some food n drink! OMG! im on diet.. =( anyway.. we chat n chat n chat until evening 6 plus.. den i hav to go hm le.. cos im damn tired..
when i reached hm.. i slp.. cant control.. i slp frm 7pm sharp till 11plus den i wake up.. can u imagine tt? i din hav my dinner.. LOL.. cos nt hungry either.. wasnt feeling gd today due to some unhappi tings happened between mi n him.. yup.. nvm im on diet.. but nvr eat wun help muz i realised.. so i hav to do more exercises n slp early liao.. starting frm tml i hope! WAHAHA!
yup so im gg to slp liao! nites!
*wad a unhappi n happi day i had ytd! (*cos nw was alreadi 1.46pM)
(*all stuffs were toking abt ytd acutalli.. but i put them in 'today' cos i haven slp yet! *yawns)
*BYE!
*my heart was broken_
1:28 AM
//**//4th feb'07
hmm~ people always says: love you forever, frens forever.. do these come true? are they real? im doubting on it.. i dun realli believe on all these words anymore.. love n frenship are so fragile.. easily gone.. but y do ppl always say love u foreva.. frens till foreva? when one said tt.. it means a promise to a person.. but hw mani can keep their promise? hw mani can realli substain a gd relationship wif others? i tink nt much.. once somebody looses contact wif u.. u eventually will tends to forget tt person.. or to contact him less den b4.. juz becos if tis.. it shows tt frenship is fragile.. when a couple seldom meet out.. their relationship will fade.. juz becos if tt.. i shows tt love is oso fragile.. yup.. when im slowly growing up.. i tends to c more clearly of those words.. i felt disappointed.. n lose trust in anyting.. everyone.. cos once i stil believe tt frens can b foreva.. love is foreva.. when any if them were gone.. i'll b hurt.. protect ourself is not to trust anyone.. no to believe in anyting but OURSELF.. e world sucks*
*my heart was broken_
12:20 AM
//**//4th feb'07
late at nite.. cant slp.. but feeling tired alreadi.. slping soon i tink.. tml hav to wake up early.. *dear is coming to find mi.. LOL.. yup.. feeling so moody nw.. *yawns. ytd went out wif sy n as.. so fun sia! LOl.. we went kboxing.. haha.. den 7pm sharp rushed bak to watch superstars final.. acutalli i forgotten to watch it when i reached hm.. cos i went to bathe! LOl.. den come out of e bathrm.. wanted to switch on da lappy le.. suddenly i felt tt using da lappy was so bored.. so i was tinking of watchin tv.. tt's y i rmb tt i wanted to watch superstar.. luckily when i switched on da tv at 8pm sharp.. darren was singing his 1st song.. tt means e show had juz "started!".. LOL.. so heng! haha.. yup.. watched until 1030 plus.. n final result.. darren won! i knew it.. although i was quite worried oso.. cos diya was e winner during half of e show.. but luckily darren catch up behind.. haha.. after tt str away went to switch on my lappy.. went online to look for shang n yee.. chatted.. n chatted on da fone wil him oso.. LOL.. after tt hang up wif him le.. continue to chat wif shang n yee.. suddenly someting happend! *mum scolding my bro.. tot he wasnt at hm.. cos he wasnt bak hm yet. stupid him* always let my mama worried.. so heartpain for my mama.. =( always had those unhappi tings happened at hm.. cos of *TT PIG! always dun listen to us.. wana go out wif his frens til late at nite.. get so much $$ frm mama n papa den nt spend on impt tings summore! go kboxing wif frens n stil can bring gf go watch moive when he hasnt gt $ n gt those $ frm my mama.. those were my mama's hard earning $$ wor.. =( duno hw to say him.. say le oso no use.. i wana kill myself so tt i do nt hav to worry all those tings at all.. y? y lyk tt? cant my life hav some peace? =S im freaking mad wif my bro when my mum has to go all e way to blk 425 gombak to find my bro.. cos my bro switch off his fone! and cos she was too worried.. as my bro has sch tml n wasnt bak to rest.. ended up oso cant find him.. cos he wasnt at gombak den.. we went walking ard lyk idiots finding tt idiot! so cold at nite n my mama has to work tml early in da morning.. =( tink of it liao oso feel lyk crying.. WTF* den finally he switch on his fone le.. n my mama happened to col him again after so mani cols.. he said he was at cck.. at his fren's hse.. noe wad? tml gt sch stil can go fren's hse stay.. summore nvr inform my mama! *sad.. i dun feel lyk gg to sch at all acutalli.. y?? den dun study lo.. y waste so mani ppl's effort n $? y?y?y? tok to him b4 so mani times le.. using both hard n soft methods oso cant wake him up.. i HATE his frens for teaching my bro bad.. acutalli hating them oso no use.. is my bro own fault oso.. if he didnt wans to learn bad.. nobody can syco him lo.. *fan! i dunwan care much oso.. no time no care oso.. i hav so mani ting to worried for myself.. i dunwana care! *tired. ok la.. rubbishing so much stuffs.. feeling beta.. gg to orhorh liao.. *sianx.. *muacks!
*my heart was broken_
12:19 AM
//**//3rd feb'07
*freak.. i wrote so mani tings.. n suddenly.. all missing.. realli feel lyk crying.. using my painful hands.. n.. *diaoss i dunwan write le.. no mood.. will continue tml..
*my heart was broken_
12:18 AM
//**//2nd feb'07
tis is a song tt belongs to mi n my best fren sy.. she wrote tis for mi when i was feeling dwn.. n i performed tis song during scc mthly performance on tis wed, 31 jan 07. LOL. lurves* tis song! thx yee. *muacks.. haha =P
Title:抽屉
Lyricist: 蔡欣怡
Verse 1
知道你很伤心 请别哭泣
满脸的伪装笑意 我早已看清
不要再次回想 伤心的记忆
不想看见你 眼角的泪迹
Verse 2
他离你而去 让你陷入困境
你心里的挣扎 像瘟疫蔓延心灵
想让你慢慢抽离 永远忘记
把那瞬间的伤心 丢进抽屉
Chorus
我会帮你紧紧锁住悲伤
再把钥匙 抛进海洋
带你去逛游乐场 肩膀借你依靠
我会帮你填补那些空当
让你的心房 不再有迷惘
只要轻轻微笑就好
让时间的抽屉不再装忧伤
*my heart was broken_
12:15 AM
//**//2nd feb'07
haha~ tink my previous blog is too messy le.. summore i seldom blog.. i wana start a fresh.. so i hav moved my old blog to a new one.. to match up wif mi changing into a brand new person.. meaningfully living in tis meaningless world.. lol.. anyways, today finally is e last day of sch.. revision muz starts from no whr tml or e day after! mux buck up wor OBS! charge! haha.. funny always blog wif lots of rubbish.. opps* haha anyway.. CNY is ard da corner.. haven buy my clothes yet.. *dead! nvm.. stil hav time.. nt to worry abt all tis 1st.. 1st ting i mux do is to kick off all my bad habits.. n start over a new leaf.. yeas! so from tml onwards.. i will TRY damn hard to strive for my goals! n oso muz study study study! jiayous wor OBS! n ofcos all my darlings n dears! anywas, i wana thx sy for acc. mi e whole afternoon.. juz looking at mi doin my iwd project. so ps ah. meet u den u cant study wif ur frens! sry*! but hope both of us can do well ya? haha.. gd luck gd luck! ytd, thurs, went out wif sy n as to orchard n bugis.. shopping for our CNY clothes... hopping to get some nice stuffs.. but in e end.. i bought nth.. but onli a purse.. lol.. hahah opps n a cardigan.. Zzz.. nvm stil hav time.. will shop wif hsia.. my poly fren.. sy n as again.. stil hav TIME* okies.. im tired le write so mani tings.. summore at tis hr.. will start again a beta one tml! yeas!
*my heart was broken_
12:14 AM
//*Monday, February 05, 2007*//hey guys~ sry ah i moved my blog again.. cos previously cant change my new blog's backgrd.. tis wld b e permanent de le! pls update okies? thx!
*my heart was broken_
1:39 PM
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