My thoughts

Out of the blues

2010-12-06T09:40:00.000-08:00

How long have I not blog in this blog already?

Time flies, it's almost coming to the end of year 2010.

Many things happened. I've grown up a little, and still growing. Many people, many things, make me stronger, my heart is stronger.

Be it good or bad, those that are important to me, I'll remember.

I am thankful to those that are always there for me. I am thankful to those that make me learn. I am thankful to those that gave me beautiful memories. I am thankful and grateful to all.

If you ever ask me if i will regret going through everything in my life, I will say no. However, if i'm given another chance to go through everything, I will not make the same mistake, I'll handle everything differently, and carefully. Maybe being too emotional is not the right style for me, though I always feels more than I think. At times, maybe I should think more.

Good learning ground. I've met so many different kind of people. Now that I know what kind of people suits and worth being in my social circle, I will have a better social life in the future.

If ever you will happen to see this post, I wana thank you for being a really nice person that came into my life once, gave me a lot of advises and I am really sorry for everything. May you have a great life and future without all the negatives.

My goal!

2009-04-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

I wana SAVE $$!!! As much as possible.

Got lots of things wana buy, wana do... BUT! $ is my biggest enemy.

I need to get:

- enough $ to pay up my stupid LOAN!

- plannings for my stupid bday...

- an adult working bag

- a wallet which suits my age

- a watch which suits my age and formal occasions

- more formal/ semi-formal tops and bottoms, shoes and accessories...BELTS!

- a spect./ contact lens (blury eye-sight >.<)

- to learn up my english to a certain standard

- to learn some stuffs for additional knowledge, which i'm aiming to learn one musical instru.

- external hard disk to store my impt and dearly stuffs before my lousy laptop stop working any one fine day..

- a new pair of slippers

- some jackets

That's all for the moment for to-do list.

Other than those things that i need to get, there are also MANY things that i wish to have... cos i am just like any human beings. LOL!

I wish to have:

- $ for overseas trips!

- a stylish camera

- a stylish new HP ( just got one half a year ago, DAMN!)

- an adult casual bag

- some casual bagSS

- some nice watches

- a diamond necklance (small small one will do, just for memories - what sheena said)

- new MP3, aiming for ipod~

- a new laptop!

- some make-up stuffs

- some hair stuffs

- more adult casual clothings, shoes, accessories...

- a new bed

- (wu yin liang ping's) 2-sitter sofa

- AIR-CONDITIONING SYSTEM IN MY HOUSE

- new water heater

- and MORE TO COME! :(

That's all for now i guess. I will slowly fulfil it. *yawns*

2009-04-25T11:26:00.000-07:00

Everyone is waiting to serve the NS.
So is He...

Got so much things to write, but i duno how to start...
recently get to know this song, actually heard b4...
it's Xia Yu Tian, sang by Lara.
got to know it from shang.. haha...
some part of the song seems to wake me up...
anyway, it's the past...
enjoy~!

曲名：下雨天歌手：南拳妈妈南拳妈妈 - 下雨天

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待让人越来越沉溺
有谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学
会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清那些差別
接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

2009-04-04T07:50:00.000-07:00

please forgive my vulgarity.

WAD THE FCUK ARE U?
I AM OLDER. I AM UR SISTER. I AM A HUMAN.
U R NOTHING. NOTHING!
DO U THINK U'RE THE KING? I GUESS U R BEING TOO INNOCENT AND IDIOT.
COCK EYES OF URS WHO FALL IN LOVE WIF A CRAZY, AS IDIOTIC AS U, FATTY PIG!
COCK EYES OF URS TO TREAT UR GAY AND SLUT FRENS SO GOOD.
COCK HEART OF URS TO TREAT UR FAMILY LIKE SHIT.
U R THE MOST STUPID PERSON IN THE WORLD.
U THINK U NOE HOW TO MAKE RIGHT DECISION? I GUESS U R MAKING URSELF A FOOL INFRONT OF CLEVER PEOPLE.
I CANT IMAGINE UR LIFE AFTER OUR PARENTS HAVE LEAVE US. GOD BLESS U DEN.
I AINT GOING TO CARE MUCH BUT I JUZ CANT SEE U N UR FCUKING GF TREAT MAMA & PAPA AND EVEN OUR DEARLY SIS LIKE SHIT.
AND IDIOT U DARE TO BE RUDE TO BE AND U'LL SEE!!!!

I HATE U I HATE U HATE U TO THE MAX!

2009-03-07T10:03:00.000-08:00

IF I HAVE A CHANCE TO REGRET, CAN I CHOOSE NOT TO GO TO GENTING ANYMORE?

Carol hates changes...
Carol hates being left out...
Carol hates feeling unimportant...
Carol hates herself...

BUT THERE IS NO ROOM FOR REGRETS...
TIME IS FIXED... DATE IS FIXED...
MAYBE PEOPLE CAN BE FLEXIBLE?

Can i go find you Miss Tan? haha...
*May I have a happy trip~ I hope...

2009-02-28T10:13:00.000-08:00

what a Rainning day...

makes people feel moody...
im tired yet i cant slp...
gona hit the bed A.S.A.P.

slacking life isn't as wonderful as i thought when im mugging for my exams...
now all i wana do is to travel out of s'pore and start searching for my direction...
was in total lost... i need some directions to carry on my empty life...

tml gona go sing kbox with sy, as and Darling chang.
AF might be joining...
and monday will be a-day-out with Darling chang also!

*stunned*
shall continue my crap tomorrow or so~
time to sleep...

2009-01-20T23:55:00.000-08:00

haven been seeing doctor for quite some time...
but i visited one Dr. Ang just now. >.<

I guess becos i:

haven been resting enuff for these 3 weeks ever since sch reopens...
haven been doing exercises for few months...
haven been having healthy diets for don't know how long...
i guess i am not a healthy person...

CNY is coming.
a brand new year is starting so soon...
gona have some new goals for myself...
most imptly i got to stay healthy and start damn hard for my last semster tests and exam.
cos i do not wan to repeat ANY modules and being stuck in NP.
i wana graduate wif my fellow classmates and frens.
i wana go overseas!
i wana find a job to earn some money to carry on my studies...
i wana giv my parents money!
i wana buy lots of things! (needs and wants too)
i wana do lots of things!
AND I WANA CHILL~~ lol...

someone said: "never let $$ stop you from doing anything you wan!".
i agreed to this saying.
and i am determined to strive for my goals!
JY JY~!

phew~ today is a resting day for me.
no more excuse for not gg to sch. i mean NO MORE ok OBS!
so looking forward to CNY though i don't have the feel. >.<
but i just love family gathering!

*worry: CNY clothes! argh~

2009-01-07T04:14:00.000-08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU'VE SAID TO ME.
AND THIS TELLS ME HOW YOU'VE ACUTALLY JUDGE BE AS A PERSON.
AND SINCE I'M THAT USELESS AND TROUBLESOME, THEN WHY ARE YOU STILL STAYING AT MY SIDE?
JUST BECAUSE I AM SO PITIFUL?
OR JUST BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T FOND ANYONE ELSE TO BE WITH YET?
I KNOW MY OWN LIMIT.
YOU NEED NO INSULT ME!

jiu yi's wedding dinner~

2008-12-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

Hello friends!
I am here to update! :)
yesterday (28th Dec'08) was my 9th aunt's wedding!
my sis & I were one of our aunt's "sisters" during the photo taking in the morning...
got to wake up at 630am to prepare, then head down to our grandma house to gather...
most of my relative was also there just to gather together...
7th anut help us to do the make-up and we were off to take photos...
then we head down to our 9th aunt's husband's house (jiu yi zhang) to had the tea ceremony after the photo taking session!
omg~ I was damn tired as I am working on sat (crown plaza hotel) with Ms Tan, thus I couldnt help but to fell aslp inside the car of Jiu Yi Zhang's younger brother... he was handsome... LOL
hmm~ then after the tea ceremony at jiu yi zhang's house, we head down to grandma house to have another round of tea ceremony... again~ i fell aslp inside the car! hope i dont look bad when i'm aslp.. Zzz..
then then~ finally everything ends at 12 plus, going to meet darling~
went home to remove the make-up and change clothes, went to westmall to buy some stuffs and I had my lunch at MOS burger...
bought a base foundation from faceshop, a belt from G2000 for darling & a milk cleaning (make-up remover) at watson... acutally wanted to buy a set of bra at triumpt, but i had no time at all~ got to reach home and wash up and to get ready within 30 mins... got to reach grandma house at 415pm, but ended up we was late.. LOL..
some of our relatives and us (my sis & I) were to reach the hotel earlier as we had to do rehearsal, etc. my sis & I were receptionist of the wedding dinner for my aunt's wedding dinner..
darling went there earlier with me, but I got no time to accompany him at all~ I was so sorry... i just hope he enjoyed himself later on with me during the wedding dinner! :)

below were some photos that I took that evening~ =D

Darling & I take 1

darling & I take 2

zheng zheng (3rd aunt's elder son) & my bro

ren tian (4th aunt's elder son) & my bro

ren tian & jing jing (3rd aunt's second son)

me & my 8th aunt's son

Eunice (8th aunt's second daughter), Yiling (1st daughter) & Shu Sian (4th aunt's 1st daughter)

jeremiah (1st aunt's son) & I

Shu Sian, me & Pei Ling (7th aunt's elder daughter)

I really enjoyed that day,

happy wedding to my 9th aunt & her husband~

family gathering were great!

I lurves them...

2008-11-04T04:34:00.000-08:00

if u ask me...

WHAT IS FRIENDSHIP?

i am sorry, i can't answer u...

cause i don't believe in it...

everybody is selfish, u don't tell me u won't...

then u are lying...

i am selfish too... i am not perfect...

but i used to believe, i have some true friends...

however, i can't believe them anymore...

ANYMORE?

is this word too strong?

i am not very sure, but for this moment, it is not...

they're humans, they're not perfect...

should i just let it pass?

the scar is there... but Y?

what have i done? to get this kind of treatment...

i can't say i am a very good friend...

but i'm trying hard to be one...

i did not request to be UR best friend...

but i hope u can treat me as one of ur good friend...

and when i thought u all are thinking as the same as me...

THE TRUST IS GONE```

2008-10-31T20:47:00.000-07:00

怎么了　你累了
说好的　幸福呢
我懂了　不说了
爱淡了　梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得'

你不等了
说好的　幸福呢
我错了　泪干了
放手了　后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

A song which shows how i felt towards someone...
this was a great song...

2008-10-25T10:46:00.000-07:00

Hey Yo everybody!

i am requested by Mr Kai Jie to update~

So! i am here to update my half-dead blog! haha~

anyways~ today is my best friend, Miss Shitty Shitna's 20th Birthday!!!

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MY DEAR AND HOPE YOU WILL LOVE THE PRESENT WE GAVE YOU AND PLEASE WEAR IT OFTEN OKIES? (:

yea~ juz came back from the gathering with the DPS fellows for sheena's birthday celebration~ as usual, slack at alif as we have no "better" place to go to, saw many old features like NT, LZ, EH, HS, etc etc. don't wish to elaborate much acutally. LOL.

ok~ today is a boring day for me. though i am glad to have acutally meet out some of my closer friends.. like AS & SY for Mc. Breakfast! (: chatted lyk for 2 hours plus.. was a great session and i hope we can have more soon next time! next is to meet up with that bunch of DPS friends! damn long than can meet them once! ad is lyk almost everyone is present. this kind of scene is a miracle.

hmm~ i feels that tis wkend is a v.short one as i had to work ytd evening. sad to say i only left wif less than a day to complete my ITP~ i guessed many has alreay finished and handed it up to their lecturers. I AM JUZ FAR TO LAZY. and i acutally did not know how to write. ): i had writing formal reoprts la! WTH~

don't care! i'm v.tired. will write it tml! no matter what i got to complete by tml~ so juz pray hard i could finish it and to probably write a normal report... hmm~ it's 2pm sharp and i am still here onlining doing nothing. i am damn damn tired but i juz don't feel lyk sleeping early. but this stupid habit of mine is making me adapting it v.fast. i am lyk so used to sleeping late! DEAD**

i really got to learn how to sleep early lyk when i am having my attachment. i guessed that 2 months where i have slept very early which caused by brain to reject the idea of wanting to sleep early. SO DAMN NO LIFE OKIES!

I HAVEN HAD MY NIGHT LIFE BACK FOR LYK MONTHS! ALMOST 3 MONTHS YOU KNOW? can die soon~ help~~~!

ok la~ enough ma Mr. Kai Jie? haha~ update urs more too so i can read! :P

hope to cya soon my friends!!! (:

2008-08-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

YAWNS!

just finished my 1st exam this morning. i felt damn exhausted and moodless to carry on my revision for the next (also the last) paper held on friday morning. i am here slacking the whole afternoon from 12pm onwards till now, sitting in front of the lappy, doing some stupid things + some flipping through of my notes.

all my classmates were enjoying themselves now i guess. )= because i failed this stupid module, i have to take my stupid exam on fri. why can't the paper be held earlier? i felt like crying!

Bee & friends might be going out C***ing today, i was still deciding whether to join them or not. but seriously, i guess i should't. but i am just so tempted to join them as my stupid attachment will be starting just in 4 days time.

NO HOLIDAY THIS SEM.! TO ENTERTAINMENTS! NO LONG HOURS SLEEP! NO FUN! NO NOTHING! my life is just so damn boring, without my boi, without my friends, without myself! most importantly, without MONEY! attachment is paying us 440 bucks for a month! WTH~ how is it enough for me to survive through this holiday, needless to say to be able to survive for the coming sem. and etc. i am just wondering why will i take up such a course in the 1st place?

blaming myself for wanting to be in the same school as my boi, and now he is already serving his NS~ my life in poly is just so terribly sad without him around. was already very used to having lunch with him everyday, going to school every morning and going back home every evening together with him without fail! unless i'm sick or blah~ aiya~ it's already a sem. ago's thingy.

trying to be independent now. hope this 2 years can pass real fast!

boi has been serving his NS for 2 months, 2 weeks and 1 day!

tomorrow he will be booking out again! or can i say he has past out from his don't know what "IPPT thingy"?

NVM~ i'm going to rest! (=

Quiz~

2008-08-12T09:17:00.000-07:00

Was doing a personality quiz with my boi~
these were our results.. i tink most of the pts are quite true.. not nt 100%!

The question:

1) Imagine that you are walking along a path. What do you see around you? please answer.
-Forest, so much forest that you can hardly see the sky.
-A yellow corn field against a brilliant blue sky.
-Softly sloping green hills, with a view of mountains in the distance.

2) What do you see near your feet? please answer
-A mirror
-A ring
-A bottle

3) Will you pick it up? please answer
-Yes
-No

4)You walk along and find water. In what form is the water? please answer
-A lake
-A waterfall
-A river

5) You see a key in the water and you pick it up. What does it look like? please answer
-An ordinary house key
-A beautiful antique key
-A small silver locker key

6) Next you stumble across a house. What type of house is it? please answer
-A spacious Hollywood mansion
-A hut with a garden full of flowers
-A beautiful old stone castle

7) What do you do next? please answer
-Look into the window
-Walk right on inside and explore
-Walk away. You're not that interested.

8) Suddenly, something jumps out at you. What is it? please answer
-A bear
-A wizard
-A spider

9) Because you are so scared you run until you see a wall blocking the path in front of you. There is a door, but it's locked, so you look through the key hole. What do you see? please answer
-A beautiful house with a vast garden.
-A pond in the middle of a desert.
-A beach with waves crashing onto the sand.

My results:

Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

His results:

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Those highlighted in white for my results, i find it so not true! haha.. >.<"
anyways doing such quizes sometimes cannot be too into it de.. if not will cause a lot of unhappiness quarrels.. relax and it will be fun~ =)

2008-08-12T02:55:00.000-07:00

yesterday went bugis wif vann~ whole day shopping onli bought tis bikini wif her.. cos it's 2 @ 30 bucks.. she so wan to buy~ so i acc. her noh.. ended up she lyk mine which onli left 1 piece~ hehe~

today went swimming wif vann & sheena @ batok swimming pool~ it was fun yet horrible.. LOL.. i guess we were juz too bored tt we acutalli started to do some funny actions.. lyk piggy-back each other? 3 in a row? lyk so damn >.<" haha~ "we are stil young".. =D

anyways~ this whole activity lasted for ard 6 hrs.. plus breakfast n lunch.. swimming n bathing.. walking n chatting.. omg~ im tired.. acutalli wanted to do some revision.. 2 day of the wk.. haven been touching my notes since last wk? felt guilty.. but lazy.. =.=" mayb i'll juz try to force myself to do some flipping thru awhile ltr..

hav a chit-chat session wif sheena juz nw.. haven been chattin wif her for a long time..! feeling great.. more chatting sessions ah Shit-na! next time will include Shit-hsia to form back our Shit-family.. =)

i hope more outings can come soon~! 22nd will be gg out wif sheena & her cliques.. It wld be fun~! (*socialing time)...

To-be-continue-!

2008-08-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

2 more days~

counting down for 8 wks le.. 2 mths~

tis is the 9th wk..

hope time can pass faster~

somehw frens ard me also face the same probs as me~

their bfs oso went in NS tis yr~

some earlier~ some ltr.. but mostly is ltr~ LOL..

earlier or ltr doesnt diff. much acutalli~

each couples has it own probs..

some may face less.. some may face more~ oso depend on the situation u're in~

as for mine~ time isnt enuff for him...

his family~ his gf~ his frens..

i do appreciates tt he doesn't hav much frens to entertain..

but dividin his time wif his family alreadi becomes lesser as compared~

if gg as the original plan~ i can onli meet him on sat~

squeezin time on fri juz to meet half an hr is v.tough for him n also myself..

squeezin out time to meet on sun oso isnt tt simple forboth of us..

the onli time given to mi (officially).. juz a sat afternoon 1 plus 2pm till 9 or 9plus pm..

these short 7hrs.. seems to be long.. but acutalli it flew juz as fast as a bird..

argh! i dun wana tink so much le~

i cant be so selfish~ wan all his time onli for myself~

though i HOPE~ i WISH~

but i noe tis ting will nvr happen to mi..

ok! JY! tml stil got ct~

no time for such emotional matters..

no matter hw emo i am.. i oso cannot change the FACTS!

face it is the onli choice i hav~

FACE FACE FACE!

my face gona be thinner n thinner as yrs gones by~ LOL..

study time~! JY..

clear all the modules man!

gona hav a gd n new start next sem.!

n it will be my last sem.!

im graduating! hoho~~

feeling great! (bluffing myself)

P.S: sy~ JY tgt wif mi okies!

i will be here supporting u!

u can hav my compnay wif u r lonely~!!

cos we r 2 lonely gals!!

shang~~ come acc. us!!!

2008-07-29T01:52:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY BF!

i miss him...

i misses him...

te bie xiang ni~

xi wang kuai le shi guang kuai dian dao lai!

wo xiang he ni liao tian...

wo xiang he ni kan ou xiang ju~

wo xiang kao zhe ni shui zhao...

wo xiang he ni shou qian shou~

wo xiang qing qing ni!

wo you hao duo wo xiang yao~

xu yao ni lai wan cheng...

2008-06-30T02:18:00.000-07:00

I WAN TO QUIT SCH!

I DUN LYK TO STUDY!

I DUN LYK TO GO TO SCH!

I DUN LYK ASS.!

I DUN LYK PROJS.

I DUN LYK LECTURERS!

I DUN LYK EVERYTING!

2008-06-29T10:57:00.000-07:00

亲爱的~

只有你是我的推动力

没有你在身边，我好像小鸟没了翅膀

一个人的生活

我走的好辛苦

每天都在期待着星期五的到来

我没了方向

满脑子都是你

我没心情做我该做的事

亲爱的~

我好想你。。。

2008-06-25T11:09:00.000-07:00

i feel so stress..
i feel so useless..
i feel damn angry can!

facing probs wif projects..
ask lecturers for help.. or juz to inform or acquire someting..
she damn say i pushing all the blame to her? WTH..
u dun understand english is it? so is my fault la? for being sway lyk shit is it?
i damn cannot understand human's mind?
juz becos im scoring lousy marks? juz becos i cant wake up for lessons? juz becos u dun lyk mi? den u fcuking treat mi lyk idiot?

I AM TRYING DAMN HARD OK?
you tink i lyk being treat lyk shit huh?
u tink i lyk being the last in class? scoring bad results? late or nt gg for class?

YOU THINK I LIKE HUH?
i also human okies?
i oso wan do gd to make my parents proud of mi..
i oso wan make my frens feel gd of mi..
i oso wan score well n help my frens instead of askin ppl for help..

LIFE is damn miserable..
im lyk so damn fcuking hate by those idiot!
i damn FCUKING hate tis stupid life i've got..

I WAN AN END TO TIS STUPID IDIOTIC LIFE..
somehow.. i just feel hopeless..

2008-06-24T11:34:00.000-07:00

I AM SO TIRED~

cant slp.. tink i got to get rid of everyting in my mind b4 i cld get to slp..
everyday tink of PROJECTS.. i can faint..
having doin the stupid IBT project since the start of the holiday.. and till nw.. all i got is SHIT!
ALL the ppl is lyk so damn heartless.. none wanted to help us in the project.. tink we're gg to die soon.. summore.. i juz duno hw to do the project *** ***... WTH!

other den tt.. i stil got tons of projects & ass. haven finish..
BMD, HSM tut., FYP, IBT, IBT tut.~
up-coming projects: SAM, HRF and predicted to hav more ltr on.

hais~ life wifout dear is more tough for mi..
days wif him ard.. i alreadi cannot tahan le..

i hate school!
i hate assignments!
i hate projects!
i hate the lecturers!
i hate the people!
i just damn fcuking HATE my poly life~!

nvr ever enjoy my poly life.. onli during the times i meet darling for sch n hm~ for lunch n etc.
not even a DAY, an HR, or a SEC.. i am happi wif tings happening ard mi..

i wan to end tis kinda life.. ASAP!
i juz wan to fcuking hack care everyting!
leave the sch! leave everyting behind..
i wanted to run away from all the problems i encounter..
i wan PEACE!
im desperate to run over to BL to find dear..
i nd his support..
im breaking dwn any secs..

but i noe none of tis cld come true..
i stil got to study..
got to finish up all my ass. n projects..
got to attend lessons and see those scukers' faces..
got to be OUT-CAST by ppl..
got to be lyk shit..

my life is juz lyk SHIT!
y is tt so? Y la!

i wan to slp..

2008-06-22T08:39:00.000-07:00

today is my 2oth bday~
really thx all my lovely frens for their wishes~
juz luv them so much! awws~~~

ytd went out wif darling.. 1stly to do proj @ NLB.. den went soup spoon for lunch n darling bought ear rings for mi! awws~ so beautiful.. realli thx honey! i luv them lots lots~ ^^
den went shopping ard n back hm to rest! haha..

today went out wif SY & AS today.. they are juz so sweet okies!
before tt meet darling for lunch.. he wanted to acc. mi to JE as i hav no time to meet him ltr on b4 he go back to camp.. realli sad.. but sry darling.. onli tis wkend.. next wkend onwards will be all urs okies? haha..
before meeting my boy~ i saw mq @ gombak station platform.. haha~ he was gg sentosa.. so QIAO! den we took train to batok.. darling board n i introduce mq to my darling~ *abit awkard* nvm.. haha.. =)
den headed to JE n byebye to mq~ went to JE entertainment to hunt for food~ haven contact as & sy but so QIAO again~ saw them @ lvl 1.. so bought an egg and went up to kbox..
slack awhile to acc. darling a lil. longer.. den got to go in le~ so nt wanted to say gd bye to my honey~ misses him lots.. =(
went in to sing K @ 2pm~ lalalala~ till 7pm!

was hav lots of fun inside.. sing lots of songs.. play~ lyk lil. kids.. juz realli ENJOY! ya cannot noe hw fun it is.. oso cant describe de! =P
AND I WANTED TO THX AS & SY FOR THE PRESENT N THE COMPANY TODAY! LUV YA!
den~ supposingly meeting AF for dinner.. but tink last min. cancelled le~ so.. its ok~ sy, as & mi went to dellifrance @ JE to hav our dinner! omg~ the service thr is juz so CMI n it spoiled my mood for a sec. but everyting is stil alright as we r happily chattin ourselves (gals talk).. n we r gg to meet dy n yq ltr on for POOL session..

finish dinner n reaches bt. timah @ ard 8 plus pm. den waited awhile n went in to play 1st while waiting for yq to come.. got trash by DY! he's a pro pooler.. LOL.. *sy smiling happily nw*..
yq came after an hr ltr.. den his turn to play wif dy le.. the 3 of us was bz taking fotos! muhahaha~ lyk 10yrs din take fotos tgt le.. we take lyk duno hw mani fotos! *HappY*..

anyways~ acutalli JX n WJ wana come find us de.. but i cldnt wait till they come.. cos got to rush hm cut cake wif family.. told them i will be hm by 1030pm. but i reaches ard 11sharp.. sis's bday wanted to stay to cut cake wif us de.. cos too late he went hm le~ realli sry jie fu! =X
anyways.. thx ah! so fortunate.. feel so xing fu when cutting cake wif my family.. tot it take juz 10 mins to finish everyting.. but i luv them!! *muacks*..

however, suddenly, when im cutting cake.. i feel so sad.. darling wasnt ard mi.. nvr once he was beside to cut cake wif mi.. was hoping every yr.. misses him.. awws!
anyways.. i got a happy news oso!
got a msg frm a v.special from.. which makes mi feel much happi again~
awws! nvr tot he wld msg mi le.. cos gg to over le my bday.. the v.last min.! his msg came! LOL. shhh~ anyways.. realli thx lots! =)

yea~~ will upload mani fotos ltr on!
to be continue~```

2008-06-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

没有你！

我什么都没办法做！

我该怎么办？

教教我？我快崩溃了。。

快开学了。。你快回到我身边吧？

我好想念你。。

2008-06-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

18th Jun'08

Happy Birthday to Angela~ =)
Happy Father's Day to dad n all fathers ard the world~
Darling is back to came today, starting from tml will be a tough journey for him~ hope he can adapt well and will come bak healthy and lively every wkends~

i am v.lucky, darling was able to come bak the 1st wk of NS.. and he will call mi every night..
getting abit use to it alreadi.. though stil quite sad abt it.. but i'll be alright i guess.. fate cant be chance, so i got to accept it.. face it.. everyting will be fine..

met him ytd n today.. happi yet sad..
i feel tt time isnt enuff.. acc. him to buy stuffs tt he nd for NS.. walk ard westmall.. den head bak hm~ did nth much.. chit chat here n thr.. hug awhile.. times up! he got to go bak..
today meet darling for movie.. Kung-fu Panda! haha.. it was a nice movie.. v.cute & funny.. after tt, head back hm again.. den darling has to go hm and pack up his stuffs.. back to camp~

yea~ went dwn to dinner for father's day after tt.. den head back hm to watch television.. den~ head back here again! boring life yea? NO~ gg to start my project tml.. haven being doin anyting since i finish my CTs.. slackin.. sad.. lazy.. tired.. relax.. for the whole 1 wk! =S

anyways.. one more wk sch will reopen.. projects due.. new start for the next half a sem.. got to be more serious.. JY obs!

*i'll be missing you every moments..

2008-06-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

寂寞人生! 开始计算！

从今天开始，我的一个人过了~

独自一人，我能熬过去吗？

好害怕。。真的好害怕。。

没有他的日子，好难熬~

我的时间多的数不尽。

我的心，停止跳动。

一想起他的离去，我无法自拔，眼泪流了下来。

我快没呼吸的勇气了。

十多天的分离，让我陷入死亡状态。

dear~ teach me. how can i do to feel better? to be brave to carry on myself alone?

2008-06-08T09:09:00.000-07:00

现在是12.10am。他睡了。最后的一天，我的心，随着时间，慢慢停止。

终于，最伤心，最害怕，最不想这一天的到临，发生了。我们有勇气面对。

我想哭

我想闹

我要耍脾气

我要任性

我无奈的表情

我伤心我难过

我迷路了！

不懂回家的路

我懂得照顾自己

我需要你

你懂不懂？

我讨厌着无聊的社会

没有你的每一天~

快乐离我好遥远~

2008-06-04T22:29:00.000-07:00

WAD HAPPENED?

i tot today sld be the happiest day of the wk?
ened up become the most fcuking day of the wk.
wad wrong hav i done again?
i tot i hav finally finish the 5 torturing CTs and sld be relaxing, happilly enjoying myself?
yet wad i've got frm u is black face, scolding for walking ard WM, lyk being dislike by u for nth?
I AM TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED! my heart is dying off at any sec.
i realli cannot imagine. tis wld be wad i hav got from u for putting so much effort.
didnt u noe wad i nd is juz a few hrs of relaxation? n for wad i noe, i tink tt u tink i sldnt hav tt n was nt tinking for u. i am being selfish as u hav ur NS stuffs to settle yet i am thr askin u to acc. mi for lunch and a walk ard WM? yea.. hw i noe u hav wad stuffs to settle? i asked u n u dinr reply. when e moment i step out of the lift, when i saw u, u alreadi giv mi tt fcuking back face! being stress lyk wad shit.. didnt every men in s'pore has to go in NS? y didnt they treat their love ones lyk tt? n y sld i stand all tis? becos i m wrong to be ur GF is it? den tell mi la!
i tink i sld be crazy. sldnt i be gg out to hav fun after all the torturing?
WTH! i m damn tired for wad i hav got frm u..
n i damn regret for askin u to acc. mi study.. acc. mi today!
if i noe.. i will tell myself to be independent. i tot i can depend on u for the last one wk.
I AM WRONG! FCUKING WRONG OK!
i hope i didnt make the wrong choice.

2008-05-31T12:13:00.000-07:00

what's my dream for future?

duno.

2008-05-31T10:39:00.000-07:00

someone said my blog was a sad blog. HAHA.
so~ i am gg to blog nice tings in again! to make my blog prettier!

anyways~ though today was a boring day.
but i had great fun at nite.
played viwawa wif shang n sally.
den chatted online wif some frens.
saw him onlined. haha. had more funny chats wif shang.
studied abit (1chapt) for HRF today oso. though it was obvious nt enuff. but at least i did study someting.
tml gg to fetch dear at chinatown. hope i can wake up at 9am to study abit. =)
but im sad tt i might nt be able to join shang they all for DY's bday. =(
hope he lyks the present we bought for him! hahaha.
tml is the start of my hell period.
i am gg to start studyin from tml onwards all the way till wed nite!
i must endure! i m sure i can make it no matter wad! 0.O?

hmm~ suddenly feels emo again! LOL.
mayb the song i am listening to nw makes mi emo.
hope CT wk can pass faster. but i hope it pass slower oso.
cos after tt. no nd to say. said so mani times.
i hope time can stop at sat!
sun his parents comin bak le. v.fast! time files. =(

i hope.. i hope.. i hope.. nvr happens.
reality is cruel.

2008-05-27T22:29:00.001-07:00

I NEED A HUMAN CLOCK!

TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.

I JUST DUN HAV SELF-DISCIPLINE.

SO FCUKING PISSED!

I HOPE I WUN GET DEBAR FROM SCHOOL.

IM IN DEEP SHIT NW.

2008-05-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

FUCKING HATE R/S.

FUCKING HATE THOSE WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND THEIR LOVE ONES WHICH IS ALWAYS GIVING IN TO THEM AND LOVE THEM MORE THAN THEY DO.

FUCKING HATE THOSE WHO THINK THAT THEY'RE ALWAYS RIGHT, WHEN THEY'RE ALWAYS WRONG.

FUCKING HATE BEING AN IDIOT.

I FUCKING HATE YOU! GO AND DIE!

*remember how you treat me. what you have said to me. you don't deserve my love. taking me for granted. wasting my time. treating me like an idiot. i will not love you ANYMORE!

2008-05-25T21:31:00.000-07:00

I HATE MYSELF! really hate myself to the core..
what have i done?
i broke my promises to myself..
i broke my goals..
i got myself into deep trouble.. WTH!
why must i like that?
y cant i wake up?
i sld hav slp real early on sun nite.. ARGH!
one last time BS!
no more chances i tell u..
if u lyk tt.. QUIT SCH LA! =(

2008-05-25T08:55:00.000-07:00

Hmm~

i wanted to do a list of tings wif honey.. =S

-singing session
-movie session
-swimming session
-shopping session
-eating sessions
-studying sessions
- etc. etc.

before he go in NS..
ahhh~ i feel so no-time-left to do all these tings wif honey..
alreadi can feel the loneliness i am gg to face when he's inside..
alreadi started to feel v.v.sad..
i cant imgaine life alone.. wld be damn miserable.. helpless..
i hope.. pray.. wish tt i cld pass thru tis big exam god has given us..
bright future ahead of us after tis torture..
i am still not mentally prepared.. whenever i tink of honey gg in ns.. i lyk cant breathe..
i guess i m gona miss him terribly when he's inside..

gona treasure every chance to meet him..
created lots of memories..
so tt when he's inside.. i can stil feel tt he's ard mi..
giving mi courage for mi to carry on my life.. to face all the problems ahead..

*i love you honey.. deeply..

2008-05-22T09:38:00.001-07:00

YES!!!

mama & papa is BACK!

v.v.happi! acutalli miss them lots.. they went for a short holiday, is back just nw. stil bought back for us our fav. ROTI PRATA! hee~ but im so full! shall eat it tml morning! yeeeepppy~!!

anyways~ today was a gd start of my life.. i was on time for HSM lect.! =D wasnt late n did listen to class. hope tis can continue for the rest of my poly life! i will try my BEST!

den den den~ as per normal.. lessons till evening.. -.-" den BACK HOME!

~.* home sweet home *.~ i love to go hm everyday! ASAP! away from tis torturing hell! nvr gg to go back to tis stupid poly after i graduate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea~ den was relax time.. v.v.tired... =(

sudden arrangement! NANA N ESTHER came gombak to find mi after their swimming session @ batok pool.. after peeping at nana's "fatty boom boom".. LOL..

they pack subway all the way here.. juz to meet mi! haha. i am v.glad! miss them lots too. haven beem meeting them since 1 or 2 wks ago i guess.. they r v.sweet frens! =)

as usual.. tok n tok! den~~~ FOTOS time! was realli havin a crazy time takin fotos @ the coffee shop somewhr near my hse.. was damn PAISEH can! LOL. cannot tahan.. laugh non-stop.. hahaha! BUT IT WAS REALLY V.V.FUN! i do enjoy it.. =D (above)

den we chat n chat, slack n slack, take fotos here n thr.. so fast.. 10 plus alreadi! they r gg hm~ so... CYA SOON GALS! *muacks``

chatted wif honey awhile, he went to slp le.. miss him terribly after knowing tt he is gg in NS soon! cldnt bear to nt able to meet him often v.soon.. i was damn damn SAD can! =(

gg to meet honey tml after his wk. hasnt seen him for 2 days alreadi. I MISS U LA~

i am gg to grab hold of every chances tt i left to create tons n tons of memories b4 u go in for NS! hee~ "Baby, i need you so much!".. * i love you...

2008-05-21T09:36:00.001-07:00

碧诗。。你啊！要勇敢！
可以吧？太习惯有他在我身边，其实我很崔罗吧？
怎么说，我也依靠了他六年，说要独立，我需要时间。。但也是该长大了。。
这首歌，表达了我对他所想要表达的。。

九十九次我愛他
少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字哎咿哎咿一句不差

九十九次我愛他
少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在(我)嘴裡溶化

加油咯！=（

我好喜欢这部戏！

2008-05-21T05:20:00.000-07:00

HAI~ totally disappointed wif myself... for nt being responsible... tink i can go die la... as soon as possible... hw can i get rid of all the probs i hav... making myself and also my frens to be disappointed for wad i have created...

tml~ 22nd of may... abt one more wk to our CT. hav been nt gg for sch for so mani times... gettin rdy to fail liao rite ONG BI SHI? feeling sick n tired of being sick... wth is my body havin such probs everytime? tink is my metality makin myself sick... i cant continue lyk tt... but is it too late alreadi? i feel so lost...

anyways, he's gg in on 10th Jun... nt able to pass... being dependent on him too much i guess... im so sad n scared... i scared tt i cant carry on my life as normal when he's nt ard mi so the comin 2 yrs... im scared of loneliness... scared of havin to face all e probs myself... scared of losing him... tink i totally hav no confidence in myself... being a failure for so long... hw can i change my life...

tis sem. means a lot to mi... got to pass tis sem. in order to catch up the rest... in order nt to repeat another sem. in order to improve my life... etc etc... but i am nt doin enuff to make all tis come true... kept falling sick... duno wad has happened... i tink emotionally wise im always sick... hais... WTH!

i got to be brave... got to change... i got to do someting to prove myself... im feeling v.sorry to those who is always supporting mi... and also v.sorry to my fren who has been helpin me all along... i got to change...

ya... no more takin steps by steps... always giving excuses rite OBS... got to wake up le gal...

2008-05-09T08:49:00.001-07:00

51 words

Speed test

195 points, so you achieved position 210878 of 464743 on the ranking list.

You type 286 characters per minute.

You have 51 correct words and you have 2 wrong words.

2008-04-30T10:45:00.000-07:00

Having some advises from my dearest frens..

i'm feeling beta rite nw... =)

xie xie ni men ah! you ni men zhen hao...

realli treasure frenship lots... cos i believe tt frenship can last longer den a r/s...

and frenship might be even more true den compared wif a r/s... but for certain type of frenship ofcos... and i'm glad tt god acutalli send ya to be frens wif mi...

having noe someting which i nvr tot tt it wld actualli happens...

but im glad tt everyting is perfectly fine after which everyone is filled wif happiness rite nw... =)

as for my current probs., lyk she said: nd to compromise each other, lyk he said: i nd some rest!... so~ i will calm myself dwn to help myself see further...

anyways... wo yao qu xiu xi le! wan an~ =D

2008-04-25T09:43:00.000-07:00

I AM VERY HAPPY!

SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS TO ME..

THINK I AM GOING TO BE LUCKY SOON..

I AM VERY HAPPY NOW.. HAHA.. =)

SHANG!!! CAN YOU FEEL THAT I CAN VERY HAPPY NOW?

CAN YOU FEEL MY HAPPINESS? I WANA SHARE WITH YOU! WITH SY!

I LOVE YA LOTS!! MUACKS MUACKS.. HAHA..

HOPE TO CYA SOON!! WO AI NI MEN!!

*he acutalli replied my msg... =)

2008-04-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

hMmm~

tired! hais.. one more wk pass again.. 6 more wks to CT! =(
didnt learn much.. gettin more n more tired each day.. falling sick sooN! lol.. tink im old liao..

anyways.. did so shoppin wif NANA chan today.. went to town.. den meet esther up to go hm tgt.. awws! lyk tt.. nv do anyting fun.. one day pass.. hope tml will be a beta n fun day for mi! Zzz..

AIYO! NTH MUCH TO BLOG..
feeling damn bored.. i wan ENTERTAINMENTS!!!! im gg to bored to death soon!!!
awwss!! sheena went MOS today.. wif her poly frens~~ hais.. i wana go!!! but i cannot.. noone acc. mi..!!!!

nvm~ tml im gg out again oso.. hais!!!!
haha.. ok la.. zai jian...

2008-04-23T22:46:00.000-07:00

AwwWWwssSS!!!

i am so bored.. so lonely.. LOL..

nvr imagine i will hav to eat my lunch alone!

but its ok la.. im tryin to adapt.. i will be fine! =)

but tink i nd a charger to keep my lappy wking.. Zzz.. heavy heavy!

today is a long long day.. nd to bring 3 NOTES! alreadi damn heavy.. plus tis stupid lappy.. n other tings more.. im grow shorter n shorter!

hmm~ juz finish the 1st part of my day.. having HSM lect., was late for ard half an hr! cannot continue lyk tt! i muz slp earlier from today onwards.. den went for IBT tut., which was cancelled.. yet i duno.. -.-" nvm.. lucky carol was thr juz as i went into e rm.. so i wldnt tink tt im in e wrong class.. nvm nvm.. do tut... den~ finally part came.. HSM presentation!!!

i was damn nervous CAN! waolao.. wif Mr XXX staring at u.. hw can u present calmly? =.=" hais.. yea.. so i EEeee EEee Aaaa AAaa lo.. =( but i've managed to finish presenting my part.. though i noe it's damn ugly.. but nbm!!! i will try harder next time.. surely do beta den today!!! juz e begining!!!! =S

yea.. den thr comes my lonely break.. one hr nia.. cant do much.. too long de break oso sian.. aiya.. juz so bored la my life.. hope i can pass every modules tis sem.!! so i can carry on my lasts em. in tis stupid poly juz lyk e others!!!! i wan i wan!! im wking v.hard!!! o.O

yea.. 8 more mins to my next lesson~ so i got to go soon~~

guess whose lesson i am gg to attend ltr?

MR SUBRA! waolao.. though i felt tt he is acutalli quite a new n funny old man~~

but i cant realli catch his words when he's teachin.. his funny accent! DUH!

nvm.. i will try my best too~~ WAHAHA.. so optimistic huh OBS! -.-

okok.. i am gg to chiong liao!!!! BYEBYEBYE~

**My mood is juz lyk the sunny day today~ at least till nw it is.. n i'll try to make it last forever!!!! sunny sunny~~

2008-04-05T08:42:00.000-07:00

aaaahhhhh!!

i am so very sad!

just nw yc called me.. say got a new for me.. asking mi to guess wad is it..

his voice is lyk "someting bad.. a bad news" kind of tone..

so i started guessing:

1) parents not gg back to taiwan?

2) parents wanted to 'discuss' someting wif u again?

3) not feeling well?

4) not enuff money to spent?

all the ans was.. NONONO! wrong! i was damn curious, worried, lost..

guess summore..

5) u got a gal outside?

still wrong! den i ask.. related to who? will affect who?

he said: almost everybody..

den at last.. i knew e ans.. ya noe wad is it? duno rite? curious? LOL..

HE RECEIVED HIS LETTER! FROM THE GOVERNMENT! HE IS GOING IN NS SOON!

Zzz.. he stil laughin so happily at the ans i gave juz nw..

i was so sad lo! gg in NS in JUNE! jun 10!

so mani days b4 my birthday lo!! waolao~ den my birthday leh!!! argh~~ hais..

nvm~ stil nt e worse of ALL! juz nw he hang up due to some "stuffs"..

he called back.. bringing another news to mi..

A BAD NEWS! WTH.. cant realli take another blow..

tis time rd, he said tis was a bad news..

so, he ask mi to guess again.. *guess guess guess*..

knowing tt it is someting regarding e previous news.. NO ND TO ASK LA!

HIS PARENTS WANTED TO SEND HIM OFF ON THE DAY HE WENT FOR NS LO!

MEANS I CANNOT SEND HIM LIAO.. COS HIS WHOLE FAMILY WILL BE GG.. HW E HELL CAN I.. WHO IS ONLI IS DAMN GF.. CAN SEND HIM OFF LEH.. TELL MI!!!

haiss.. thr is nth much i can change.. =(

anyways.. he was posted to the civil defence section..

his fren said mayb cos he is a PR.. tt's y they wun post him to those "high rank" sections.. due to security reasons? HA.

*hope. pray, wish*.. tt his might b able to come out often during his NS life.. so tt i wun b affected by "xiang si" virus.. =.="

anyways.. i nd to tink.. =(

2008-03-27T10:33:00.000-07:00

All About Cancer

Crabs live in the inter-tidal zone of the oceans, where tides rise and fall twice every day. This is the most dynamic and changeful place on earth, but also the most nutrient rich. Because of the constant change, Cancer have developed a hard outer shell for protection. Cancer can use the hard outer shell of your home as your protection. But it's more than just that. Typically, your sensitive Cancer can hold your feelings quietly behind your own walls.

Crabs also have large pinching claws, and Cancer can hold onto things, especially from the past. Cancer are fiercely loyal and have a difficult time letting go. But Cancer are also quick to bring those you love inside the safety of your outer shell while you nurture them. Cancer love is protective, but unless tempered, can be smothering.

Cancer motto could be, "A good defense is the best offense." Like a Crab in its cave, your attack can consist of baiting your opponent into your territory. What appears to be a retreat to others can be your best aggressive tactic. As you feel your way through life, building your security by developing your home and family relationships, remember that unexpressed anger can turn into resentment and depression, so find someone you can trust and share your feelings.

Element: WaterAstrologically, the water element symbolizes emotion. Water runs deep; it seeks its own level and will flow until it has found it. The cycle of water is endless with the snows falling in the mountains and melting. The mountain streams join to make the great rivers that run to the sea. The tides and currents churn the oceans. Similarly, our feelings are flowing as they connect the present with past experiences. Sometimes the waters are so deep that we cannot put words to our feelings.

Cancer Greatest Strength: Your ability to nurture others

Cancer Possible Weakness: Fear of the past repeating in the future.

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Additional:

Primary Characteristics:
-Creative
-Romantic

Positive Personality Traits:
-Emotional and loving
-Intuitive and imaginative
-Protective and sympathetic
-Shrewd and cautious

Dangers:
-Can be changeable and moody
-Can be clinging, and may be unable to let go
-Can be overemotional and touchy.

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Relationships:

Most Compatible:
Scorpio, Pisces
Compatible:
Leo, Virgo, Taurus, Gemini
Evens:
Sagittarius, Aquarius
Least Compatible:
Libra, Capricorn, Aries, Cancer.

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Flowers

Over many centuries a tradition has arisen of giving flowers that correspond to a loved-one's or friend's birth date.

Here are the appropriate flowers for somebody born in July:
Larkspur

For those born in late June, you may prefer to give the traditional flowers for that month:
Rose

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The Cancerians

Cancerians will be dedicated workers, and will do well at keeping their work and home lives separated. If you have a co-worker with an office full of family photos, you can be sure you are working with a Cancer individual. Cancers do best in jobs where they can nurture others. They have the imagination and intuition to feel what others are feeling and therefore make good human resource employees, trainers, or medical personnel. They are usually not ecstatic about change, so a stable job environment is a positive for Cancer. All in all, the Cancer individual will provide you with a strong, diligent, stable worker who empathizes with co-workers and does a good job with his assigned tasks.

If you have found a romantic partner in a Cancer, you have a caring, insightful, and sentimental partner indeed. Although your Cancer will demand complete honesty and fidelity from you, be aware that it is not above him to dally once in a while himself. Rest assured, though, his real roots are with those to whom he has made a commitment. Cancerians are the most nurturing sign in the zodiac, with a deep-seated need to care for others, and as such will make an excellent caretaker of both the home and the children. Some might find the Cancerian's lavish attention a bit smothering, however, and if Cancer does not feel their efforts are appreciated, they will fall into a deep funk that may be quite hard to reverse. Many find Cancer individuals difficult to understand, as their emotions sometimes overrule their more sensible side. In order to have a successful relationship with a Cancer, one must choose to accept mood swings and the occasional need that their Cancer partner has to withdraw completely at times. Your Cancer partner equates money with security, and along with providing a comfortable home, will also likely see to it that there is a comfortable nest egg in reserve too.

The best matches for Cancer for sure are Scorpio and Pisces. but Taurus, Leo, Gemini, and Virgo might work for some individuals. It will likely be tough going for Aries, Libra, Capricorn, or another Cancer.

Cancer in any relationship is nurturing and caring, but with deep mood swings and a sharp tongue when provoked. Cancer seeks out others who are stable and loyal, and who want to focus on home and family. The Cancer individual will be cautious with money and will likely have some cash stashed away for a rainy day. He will also be a collector of something , maybe antiques because of his emotional ties to the past, but possibly something such as coins or model cars or shot glasses. Your Cancer friend will help you if you are in need, but will almost always wait until the last minute to do so, after waiting for you to exhaust all other possibilities. Just remember, the by-words for Cancer are "I feel," so be careful to emit good vibes around your Cancerian friend and you will be richly rewarded!

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The End.

2008-03-27T09:32:00.000-07:00

我要幸福！
身边的朋友随着时间，都有了她们人生的另一半。为她们感到无批的开心。希望他们能永永远远幸福的在一起。
我呢，当然也有了我人生最重要的另一半。他对我很好，很爱我。帮助我度过了很多难关，带着我向前走，过着有意义的人生。因为他，我的人生不自于只有黑暗，从叛逆的我，我学会了懂事，替被人着想，关心身边的人。懂得分辩对于错。不可否认，我的人生已不能没有他。
有了幸福，也会有不幸福。上帝是公平的，每个人都会有缺点，每件事都会有坏的一面。
我有了一个好的爱情，却不能完全被祝福。我不能进一步的参与他的世界，只能当他生命中的一个配角。我了解，并且体谅他的难处。没办法不去难过的我，只能不知所措的伤心。
我希望，不久的将来，我会被肯定，会被接受，会被祝福。

最近，非常喜欢这首歌。
从以前也蛮欣赏这位歌手。他的歌，让我听了会开心起来，会突然沉默，会感动。

曲名：为你写诗
歌手：吴克群

爱情是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制
爱情是一种本事
我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗

为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智

为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字

爱情是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗

为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智

为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字

为你写诗为你静止为
你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智

为你写诗为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字

我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子

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我希望，我也能为了你，做你喜欢，会幸福开心的事。
为了你，我愿意做任何事，只要能看到你对我微笑。
爱你，幸福，是我唯一能为你常识去做的事。
你懂我吗？---〉我爱你...

2008-03-11T09:30:00.000-07:00

if only i could be a bit more heartless like you... i might be free from sadness, loneliness...
if only i could be a bit more thoughtful... you might not treat me like that...
if only i could forget you...
what will my life be?
if only... i did not know you at the begining...
will i... be happy... be upset... be lonely...?
if only... countless of "if only"...
if only... i don't exist... i will not be hurt... others will not be hurt by me too...

*my heart hurts, my tears dried up... by the cold wind in the lonely night~*

2008-03-11T08:04:00.000-07:00

这世界最甜蜜的是爱情。。。
但最可贵的却是亲情。。。
爱情不一定是永久的。。。
但亲情却是一生一世的。。。
曾经以为爱情是我的一切。。。
现在才发现亲情使我的人生。。。
当我深深陷入爱情里时。。。缺发现爱清不完美的事实。。。发现爱情可怕的一面。。。
我陷入了困境。。。我不知所措。。。我对爱情失去了信心。。。

2008-03-08T12:50:00.000-08:00

如果说。。。

爱情是甜蜜的。是充满着浪漫气氛，是幸福美满的。
为什么？还是有许多伤心地回忆？还是有痛苦流泪的场合出现？
难道~ 爱情等于甜蜜，也等于痛苦吗？
那如果缺少了任何一样，那时不是等于那段感情不等于是爱情了呢？

2008-03-05T06:54:00.000-08:00

爱情。。。
是一件很复杂的关系。。
甜蜜的时候。。。有说不出的幸福。。。让人难分难舍。。。
在冷战或争吵的时候。。。让人心情烦躁。。。痛哭泪流。。。
而感情的多余少。。。会随着时间而变化。。。
说变就变。。。不等人。。。不给面子。。。不看情份。。。
是个即羡慕，又可怕的关系。。。
让我无法猜透。。。去看明白。。。去多了解。。。

有过甜蜜的爱情。。。也有过痛苦的回忆。。。
现在的我们。。。不知处在哪一个阶段。。。
我感到不安。。。感到纳闷。。。感到不知所措。。。
我不了解你。。。你也不了解我要的是什么。。。
我试着把这份感情抓好。。。不放弃任何能让我们之间更亲密的机会。。。
不知是哪里出问题。。。永远都不能完成心愿。。。

我累了。。。真的很累。。。
我多次想放弃。。。却依依不舍。。。
以很习惯你的存在。。。我该怎么办才好？
希望不久将来。。。我们会有好的结果。。。
我爱你~ 你爱我吗？

2008-02-26T06:47:00.000-08:00

awws! =)

started to wk le.. wk wif sy n dy.. n his sis n frens..
environment stil ok.. juz abit bored~ but e pay is reasonable.. so~ NO CHOICE! STIL GOTA WK.. COS ND TO EARN $$! haha..

today is our (sy n mi) 2nd day of wk.. stil doin e same ting.. i dun mind doin tt for a period of time.. cos it is relaxin enuff.. got chair to sit.. nobody is comin to disturb us.. ask us to do tis do tt.. so~~ great! i can daze! hee~ but i m gg to do a great job (hope).. cos dy said b4.. "bu yao throw ta de lian"..

our job is to take our e expiry date of e product n paste e new one onto e existing place.. cos e license (yr) of e product had been extended.. so.. frm 3 yrs.. they gona add in 2 more yrs to 5 yrs.. n tt realli wasted lots of man power! LOL..

for duno wad purpose.. i had counted e no. of bottles i had done.. 1st day: 418 bottles, 2nd day: 420 bottles! yea man~ i hav improved! satisfied! =) few more bottles to 1000 bottles! tml gg to hit my target! 450 bottles~ tink im too bored!

hmm~ hasnt been meeting my frens recently.. miss them lots~ no fun at all.. tiredness 100%! got to enjoy abit over e wkends.. if nt i tink i cannoe tahan long.. LOL.. n day 29th feb is juz ard e corner! hehe..

hmM~ was wondering hw's wk for AS n gals~ sld b ok rite? meet out for another kbox session? HAHA.. n oso for sheena n ms tan! damn long din see them le.. they MIA! =(
nw i onli got to see my darling princess everyday.. beta den nth~ n her boy oso crack jokes everyday.. so life was stil ok.. filled wif laughter n joy.. n tiredness.. =S

anyways.. i will try to update~ when i hav e time~ haha..
guys~ enjoy ur holiday ya! hurray~!!! =)

air show 2008

2008-02-23T07:33:00.000-08:00

Today went to the Air Show 2008 at Changi Exhibition Centre wif my boy, n 2 of his classmates.. quite a unforgettable experience.. cos e crowd was like... "OMG! damn long~! =.=".." lyk they say.. mother long.. LOL.. funny language oso..

reached pasir ris at 9am..wif one of his classmate.. we went to had our breakfast at e same time waiting my boy's another classmate to meet us.. after which we meet him at e entrance of white sand shopping mall.. n we realised tt someting was v.weird.. ppl were queueing in a v.messy manner.. all over e walking path.. we was lyk asking ourselves.. is tis e queue we r gg to queue ltr? as thr were free shuttle bus to e exhibition centre.. n our ans is.. YES! tis queue was too long till u cannot predict hw long it was.. n thr were lyk 2 or 3 long queues.. oso nt sure which to queue.. we cant even find pur whr is e start of e queue.. in a mess!!

finally.. my boy's classmates.. sam n YX.. sam decided to cut into e queue behind a grp of indian.. LOL.. quite PS la.. but no choice.. e queue was damn long.. tink thr r hundreds n hundreds of ppl.. awws! finally when we r lyk abt to reach e busstop to had our chance to board e bus.. we realise tt we hav cut into at least half of e queue.. which we save lots of time waiting.. lucky man! if nt.. i tink we will have to spent 2 hrs waiting to board e bus.. ohya.. we queue frm 9 plus 10am to 11am sharp.. can u imagine????

finally.. got onto e bus.. fully packed.. damn tired.. tot everyting will be gg smoothly after e long queueing up.. who noes?? it took us another 1 hr to reach e place.. which we reach thr at 1215pm.. whole mornin was standing lyk hell.. cos thr was a trafic jam.. jam at e entrance of e centre.. tink of it.. i stil feel lyk fainting.. so dizzy.. haha..

got out of e bus.. continue queueing!! queue to go into e centre.. long queue again! n b4 we manage to go inside.. we stil hav to had our bags checked.. security check.. no choice.. who noes if we bring bag muz kena check.. if i noe.. i wldn't hav bring.. cos u stil nd to queue to hav ur bags checked.. i hav been queueing up frm pasir ris all e way till e moment i step into e centre.. by den.. i was damn tired n was sweating lyk hell!

yea.. we miss e front part of flying display i guess..? or is it call e air show? viewing of some aeroplanes flying up high in e sky.. doin stuns.. haha.. quite interesting.. but e weather is damn hot.. we were all standin under e hot sun watching.. sweat flow down lyk water running out of e tap.. i was damn exhausted.. gg to faint anytime.. but i tink its stil quite worth it.. cos i had nvr watch a real aeroplane flying n doin stun at e same time..

hmm~ watched for 1 hr for show.. cant stand it anymore.. though it onli left 15 mins of show.. mi n my boy went out of e "place" and head towards e "place" or area which some aeroplanes were displayed out for us to see.. n ofcos take fotos..! all of them were damn cool.. ohya! i managed to see e AirBus A380 aeroplane.. damn huge! double deck! LOL.. hope i cld travel overseas on tis aeroplane one day in e future.. HAHA!

hmm~~ after which was.. "foto taking sections"..

den~ finally.. gg bak le.. n.. hell again.. queueing up to take e bus bak to pasir ris.. waiting for more den half an hr.. got on to e bus.. n took ard half an hr to reach PS.. hais.. another 1 hr.. but tis 1 hr was torturing.. cos everyone was sweating lyk hell.. n i was lyk damn tired.. standing for e whole day.. frm 10am till 4pm.. my leg almost broke into pieces.. den e bus was v.packed.. no fresh air.. dehydrate summore.. i wana die at e pt of time..

when i step out of e bus.. omg! FRESH AIR! damn cooling.. nvr knew tt natural air oso can be so cooling.. n when i finally drag myself to white sand shopping mall.. REN JIAN TIAN TANG ah~~... =.="

when to hav lunch.. n when hm.. was slping e whole journey bak.. tired tired tired~~
when hm.. wash up a bit.. dun care.. juz slp.. slp n slp till 8pm.. LOL..

hmm~ damn long leh tis post.. =.="
gg to stop here.. will upload fotos soon!
tata~

2008-02-21T09:25:00.000-08:00

OMG~ now then i realised that this song is so meaningful..
at least is v.meaningful for me..
really start to like this song so much..
especially that highlighted part..
enjoy~~ =)

曲名：小脾气
歌手：卓文萱
卓文萱 - 小脾气

不是戴眼镜就变的聪明配
你的发型呆的可以
不要把零钱又放口袋里
一路像挂铃当的猫咪

有一点害羞又很安静
你有一种宅男的神秘
讲话很金牛心思很双鱼
跟我说话却不敢看我的眼睛
一个人傻傻的默默的远远的守护着我永不靠近 (ho~o~喔)

小脾气耍点小脾气
我想看你对我有多在意
我的小脾气因为喜欢你
这个荣幸我只给你而已

身边也有人帅气又热情
但爱情不是这些东西
我也不一定要一见钟情
爱有时候日久见人心

有一点害羞又很安静
你有一种宅男的神秘
讲话很金牛心思很双鱼
跟我说话却不敢看我的眼睛
一个人傻傻的默默的远远的守护着我永不靠近 (ho~o~喔)

小脾气耍点小脾气
我想看你对我有多在意
我的小脾气因为喜欢你
这个荣幸我只给你而已

小脾气耍点小脾气
爱你所以训练你的反应
我的小脾气因为喜欢你
跟我一起制造爱的乐趣

lastly.. guys n gals.. i hav updated my blog.. LOL..
will try to update soon! dun ask mi to close ma.. =)
duo duo zhi chi ah! xie xie~ =D

kboxing.. 9 hrs.. LOL..

2007-12-17T10:37:00.000-08:00

ytd went to sing kbox wif AF.. but onli 5 of us went.. cos e other 3 weren't free.. quite sad.. haha.. but did enjoy lots..

stil tot tt we can onli sing until 11pm.. but lucky they didn't ask us to leave.. den as wk till 1030pm n came to find us.. =)

yup.. sing till 3 plus.. den we went to eat.. LOL.. cos they r hungry.. after which we walk ard n went to e bus-stop to wait for e 1st bus to go hm.. so tired ah! =S

finally reached hm early in e morning.. was msgin my fren but i acutalli fall slp half way.. haven even send out e msg.. guess hw tired i am.. n suddenly wake up n find myself haven go prepared.. so went to bathe all these n slp bak.. LOL..

woke up at 12 plus... n slp in e afternoon again... wake up again.. and nap in e late afternoon.. i hav enuff slp.. but end up cant slp at nite.. zzz.. but im feeling tired nw again.. ofcos.. nw alreadi gg 3 liao.. hahaha.. will end here..

(*yawns*... sad.. dunoe y blogger gt prob.. fotos upload all cannot be shown.. others de blog oso.. so tink i will be uploading some fotos next time rd..)

i promise i am nt gg to luv him lyk i do before...

2007-12-07T07:33:00.000-08:00

yea.. wad a day.. 7th dec.. 6 years n 1 mth..
suppose to meet up to acc. each other lyk wad we will do to each of e mths.. though it's nt any sort of celebration as celebratin every mth is realli damn funny.. but meeting up i suppose is quite impt.. even if i m onli e one in tis world who tink it tis way.. i m v.serious in it..
but he is juz bz doin someting tt i tink he sldnt be doin it at tis pt of time.. our mthly anniversary n juz before e Ct..
forget it.. i m nt gg to care much.. wad he wana do.. i wun giv a damn anymore.. lyk i said.. i promise i m nt gg to luv him lyk before.. nt anymore.. repeatedly.. he hurt mi wifout knowin it for duno hw mani times.. y sld i care of a person lyk tis?
i juz noe tt i nd to be independent frm nw.. y sld i nded him so much?
i will reach my goal.. n i am gg to do it no matter wad..

2007-11-28T00:16:00.000-08:00

hmm~ tink im juz fated to be a loner?

sometimes i juz tried v.hard to be sociable to everyone.. but it seems lyk everyting didnt go in the way i wan it to be.. though sometimes it's alright too..

i dun nd them to treat me lyk their best fren.. juz a normal classmates.. frankly speaking.. i felt so left out at times.. i juz cldnt control my feelings.. n hav to admit tt im upset.. which i told myself nt to be so.. cos it's acutalli nth impt..

but i juz wan to noe e reason y.. it is becos im nt their classmates? cos im nt always tgt wif them.. did nt spent enuff time.. or cos they juz tink im a slacker?

anyways.. i feel beta nw.. tink im tinking too much..

acutalli i oso din nt sld tt im a hardwking student plus a gd fren too.. yup.. tt's fate..

2007-11-19T06:46:00.000-08:00

Hmm~

finally.. i was thr for ABT lect's n tutorial.. =)
was absence for 3 wks of lects n 2 wks of tuts.. cis i overslept.. n was sick 1 of e wk.. felt so guilty.. so decided to pull myself up no matter wad.. n i did it~! LOL..

yea.. wasnt' feeling v.well tis morning.. on e way to sch on e bus.. my gastric pain suddenly come knock on my stomach.. "hello hello? forgotten me le? i am here to remind u to eat ur breakfast!".. n yea~ after tt tremedous pain i had.. i went to hav my breakfast.. duno wana make it worse.. haha~

sch was too boring for mi.. kept on wana fall aslp in class.. but i DID NOT slp at all.. proud of my determination! o.O? guess so? hahaha..

anyways.. everyting is pretty fine nw wif mi n him.. cos i juz hav to face e fact? nthing is gona change even if i'm damn upset.. so.. i'll let tings be as it is.. =)

argh~~ juz nw so got e feel to blog de.. but my sis suddenly come NAG~ at mi.. hais.. tink i'll stop here! -.-"

~.[ zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui wo nu li zai wan hui ]._~

2007-11-17T21:56:00.000-08:00

what wrong have i done?
you just love to shout at me?
if you don't like to do the things i have asked you to help..
or if you do not want to meet me.. just let me know..
i really have enough of all this shouting.. quarrellings..
can you just give me a break? i am very very tired..
i don't know i still can endure for how long..
is this really what you want?
*freak*

~.[ zhe gan jue yi jing bu dui wo nu li zai wan hui ]._~

feel absolutely nothing..

2007-11-16T01:15:00.000-08:00

don't understand why..
what has happened? guess i did something wrong again..
cause i din wait for him? cause i neglect his feelings?
aishang's dad is coming to fetch her fomr school.. i asked if i we could tag along.. cause i'm pretty tired and lazy to take bus back home from school.. holding the heavy lappy and weren't really feeling well today.. and she asked her dad.. her dad is ok with it.. so there, we waited for him at the atrium.. which he told me he need around 10 mins more since i last called him..
when i called him again as aishang's dad is reaching soon, i asked him whether he is done with his stuffs alreadi? and his answer was NO! so.. i asked him does he want to come along or to start back in school to do his stuffs or can he like do it other day.. he weren't sure.. so he asked me to go home first.. he will call me back later..
aishang's dad was good enough.. he send me back all the way to gombak mrt station.. when i just alight, he called me.. soundly still alright..
he asked me where am i and blah blah blah.. suddenly.. he asked why i didn't wait for him.. i was pretty guilty also.. so i tried to apologise and "hong" him.. instead of feeling better.. he suddenly started to be very angry and shouted at me.. why? what did i do wrong? for being good to you?
after all.. you are busy with your work.. i am alright that you acutally wanted to stay back in school to finish up your stuffs.. you chose to come find me and now what?
i am so disappointed.. he acutalli shouted at me loudly.. which i acutalli did nothing wrong?
i am so damn tired.. i'm tired of quarreling with you for small little stuffs.. tired of you being my bf but have nothing much to talk to me about? tired of you being impaitent when i am feeling down or angry.. which if the situation is you, however hard i tried to make you feel better.. nothing happens but you got even angry then before.. tired of listening you shouting at me like as if i am your enemy.. tired of thinking till my head is cracking whether you acutalli love me?
i am just very very tired.. i don't know how long can i endure this relationship..
i am just a very normal person.. i just need the basic love like every other women needs..
i just feel......................................................................

trail..

2007-11-01T00:30:00.000-07:00

HOHO~

guess whu is sitting beside mi nw?

u will nvr noe?
i'ts our most beautiful princess........................................
da dang! "miss chua aka mrs otah pretty woman!"

haha.. jealous ba?
i guess i am too bored..
or mayb i tink i too high liao!!

i saw his frenster!!!
eeks.. disgusting lo!!! argh~~~~~~~

i am gona update soon again..

tis is juz a trail!
LOL..

skin food cum halloween!

2007-10-28T10:01:00.000-07:00

SKIN FOOD!
whr AS is wking part-time..
whr i gt my facial products frm..
whr i had my halloween experience at..
LOL.. today was a fun day.. but tiring too..

working frm 7am to 12pm as usual during e wkends..
den when to buy food for dinner.. refri. was empty.. LOL..
den when hm to prepare and went out to JE platform to meet vann. chan! haha..
she was late! LOL.. =X
den we head dwn to orchard.. went to witsma n den to fareasr plaza..
1st place.. skin food! haha..
cant wait to find AS.. n to see wad products i sld buy..
*choosing* for quite a period of time..
finally bought: a cleanser.. a moisturizer.. a pack of pore remover (4 picecs - shared wif vann.)..
and helped sheena to buy e base coat nail polish she wanted to get previously.. LOL..
waa~~ den chit chat here n thr.. yea! foto time!

thr was a halloween duno wad stuff juz outside skin food..
so i requested to take fotos wif as n vann.! we walked here n thr to find those "ghost" to take fotos wif.. haha.. they were indeed quite scary! i wana kena shocked a few times.. n i tink AS was brave! mayb cos they were humans oso.. LOL..

yea.. after foto session.. mi n vann. decided to go shop ard.. nt wanting to disturb AS further as she is stil wking.. nt too gd to let her "fren" to wait too long.. haha..
so we went shopping ard FE.. frm 1st floor to 5th floor.. den 5th floor again to basement..
DAMN tired ah my legs..!!
anyways.. other den my facial products.. i din buy anymore stuffs..
got to control my spending habit.. got to spend less!! =(
i will buy those tt i saw which i lyk next time.. =X

hmm.. too tired to upload those fotos alreadi..
i am gg to slp nw!
will upload tml!! tataZ~~

*lurves!

wad a day..

2007-10-25T21:31:00.000-07:00

hais.. i am sick..
i didn't go to sch today..
didn't send my grp mem. my stuffs i hav done for today tut. presentation on time..
everyting was messed up..
cos i am sick..
cos i din go to sch..
cos i am juz so irresponsible..
cos i am juz a failure..
cos i juz HATE myself so much..
after some efforts i hav put in to make myself a responsible person..
i am here making troubles to everyone again..
i am juz too bz tis few days..
dun hav enuff rest..
dun hav time to do my ass. ..
i guessed i am nt doin e rite stuffs at e right moment..

help~ hw can i hav a peaceful life?
hw can i nt messing up my own life?
i am juz damn pissed off..
I AM JUZ DAMN PISSED OFF!!!
i juz dun feel lyk doin anyting..
i am gg to rest.. =(

freaking bored!

2007-10-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

HEY YA MAN!! i'm back~~~~

hahaha.. few billions hours ago did i last blogged?
tink im pretty bz few days back..

bz shopping for stuffs and clothes.. so tt i will hav enuff clothes to wear to sch.. LOL..
bz gg out wif my dar links and bz slacking.. Zzz..

yea.. sch is ard e corner..!
BORED AH BORED!! suddenly.. studyin is such a boring stuff in my dictionary..
but NO!! i cannot.. cannot hav tis kinda tinking!!

i muz JIAYOU!!! JIAYOUS for my goal!!!! 2 n above!!!!! muhahaha~~ wad kinda goal is tis? -.-"
hais.. i tink im such a failure.. =(

anyways~~~~ im so tired u noe!
hav been wking part time at my previous wking place durin tis holi..
juz for some sats & suns..
to earn more POCKET MONEY! hahaha..
cos im poor~ LOL.. it mi tink of a song~~

"pretty pretty poor i mean i realli..
nvr nvr had a big sum of money!
pretty pretty nd them nw..
cos i nd to buy someting~"

haiss.. i tink im too bored eh..
doin stuffs lyk a retard..
anyways.. my 2 dar links are online.. im gona find them to acc. mi lesing! tada~

freedom!!!!

2007-10-01T01:43:00.000-07:00

HEY YA!

fianlly finished my wking DAYS for tis sem.!
yea i'm freed frm wking..
freedom is ahead of mi! but suddenly i'm nt used to doin nth at hm..
and i kept feeling tt i hav no $$!
indeed.. spendin is faster den saving.. or even earning..
yawns.. im bored to death!!! eeekkss..

anyways.. tink i gona do someting meaningful tis 2 wks..
b4 sch is gg to start again.. tink of it.. i feel so SIAN SIAN SIAN~~

no choice.. wking is hard.. studyin is boring..
cant do both at e same time..
cant do nth at e same time too..
so we got to choose one..
for e moment.. i will choose study!
cos wking for a mth makes mi look even older den b4!
cui ah cui ah~~

hmm.. got to get rdy to spent part of my money on clothes.. shoes.. bags.. accessories.. stationaries.. lect notes.. and stuffs.. SIAN!
my money will soon be others's ppl's money le.. HOHOHO~
tis is called a circular flow..!
money earned frm e society.. den spent bak into e society! -.-"

anyways.. got to wk hard for next sem.!
cos even i did passed all my modules tis sem.
my agg.score is DAMN NICE u noe.. hais..

I AM HERE TO SWEAR AGAIN!
I AM GG TO SCORE MORE DEN 2 TIS COMING SEM.!
i cant always scored less den 2 isnt it? tis is alreadi half a poly life gone..
and my results is lyk.. WTH~ CMI! =(

yea yea.. for e moment.. im am gg to relax..
nt stressing myself tt early.. RELAX!

and i nd to organise my money spendin properly.. so i wun nt face financial prob at e end of e sem.! Zzzz...

yea! JIA YOUS AH ONG BI SHI! YOU CAN MAKE IT.. *muacks*

爱是什么？

2007-09-19T10:49:00.000-07:00

像梦一般的美丽爱情故事。。
像电视里的动人爱情。。

我渴望拥有。。
我渴望我的白马王子会出现。。
希望他会是我的白马王子。。

浪漫。。
关心。。
爱护。。
疼爱。。
心疼。。
想念。。
照顾。。
完美爱情所欠缺不了的。。
他不能给我百分之百。。

做人不能太贪心。。
要懂得知足。。
但。。我的梦。。就是完美无瑕的爱情。。

像童话一般。。
感人。。
甜蜜。。
浪漫。。

其实我要求不多。。
就是能感受到爱。。那就足够了。。

但往往显示和童话本就不同。。
面对现实吧！！

ms tan's bday!

2007-09-16T02:50:00.000-07:00

today is my ms tan's bday!!

i am here to WISH U A VERY VERY HAPY BIRTHDAY MS TAN!!

hopes tt everyting is fine for u..
and congratz to u..
to day is a very very special day for u!! LOL..
u noe i noe can le.. HAHAHA..

HOWEVER.. today isnt a happy day for mi..
can say tt it is a very sad day for mi..
cos i hav my freedom..

yea.. n i am gg to stop here..

guys n gals..
lets meet out soon to hav fun!
cya~~~~~

we love grow!!!

2007-09-14T03:13:00.000-07:00

YEA MAN.. YEA MAN.. YEA MAN!!!!

hohoho~ LYK WAD I SAID DURING MY LAST 3rD POST!!
I WILL NEVER FAIL ANOTHER MODULES(S) ANYMORE TIS SEM!

yes man.. i did it! congratz to myself!! hehe..
noe wad? i was v.worried abt it e whole morning..
as i am wking frm 7am to 5pm.. i dun even hav e time to hav a proper lunch or even hav time to realli rest n relax myself awhile before i wking my 2nd half of my wking hrs.. hais..

life is realli boring.. wking wking n wking..
went bak hm.. resting resting n resting..
at night.. slpin slpin n slpin..
once in a while.. went out to celebrate frens bday..
went out to shop for one or two times..
meet my DARlings.. for a few times!
meet my bf 2 or 3 times a wk for a few hrs..

acutalli spent less den an hr tokin to my family mem.s per day!

WTH.. is tis realli a life for a normal human?
i doubt so!!!! certainly crazy for mi!!!
hais.. but no choice.. i hav to wk for MONEY!

for e $$ tt are needed when sch reopens..
buying notes n stuffs for lesson use..
buying shirts.. clothings.. shoes.. bags.. accessories and all sort of stuffs for daily cum sch uses oso!
n traveling fees.. food.. argh~~
n calculate up.. i left nt much for my entertainments n to hav fun.. or even for emergencies use.. =( i feel so sad!!!

but i am far too tired to wk for another few more wks.. but i will try to persuade myself to at leasr wk til end of tis mth? to hav 3 wks of rest? to at least earn a thousand dollars? =(
but i hav alreadi spent $$ in adv. before i hav acutalli got my PAY!! ahhH~~~

no choice.. no matter hw much i tried to save.. i still nd money to survive..
whr my parents dun hav much to spare mi for my expenses.. Awwwss!

nvm.. im growing up day by day.. yr by yr.. mths by mths?? hmmMM.. haha..
so i hav ti be independent no matter wad.. den mind as well be more matured nw? =D

i hope everyting is a change for mi nw..
starting new.. i wana be someone useful..
i wan my life to hav someting special! =D

JiaYous!!!

wking life sux.. haha..

2007-09-08T21:27:00.000-07:00

kboxing.. 020907!

da ge's bday!! 020907! haha..

our da ge wif our niao ge? LOL =X

one animal is missing!!!

1st time kboxin session wif everyone ard~ =)

waaa!! since decades ago did i last blogged? haha..

no choice ma.. im workin.. =(

im wking 10hrs per day for 2 weeks alreadi..

v.v.tired u noe? LOL..

onli tt i got to rest both sunday..

n tt nw i am nt tt tired..

so faster come online to blog as requested from someones.. LOL..

ytd i slp at 7 plus pm.. can u imagine hw tired i am? =S

n i hav been slpin v.early tis holiday.. every since i started wking..

e lastest i will be slpin at 12 plus.. which broke my records of slpin at 3 plus? 5 plus? LOL..

anyways.. every since i started wking.. i onli gt to go out lyk 4 times?

2 times wif my darling shi hsia n one of e 2 time wif my darling sheena..

another 2 time is one kboxing wif animal farm n another time celebrating our da ge's bday! haha.. so sad i cannot attend our er ge's bday outing.. LOL..

yup.. n ltr on i will be puttin up so fotos tt we hav took during our outings!!

so tired ah!! i wana go spa or massage.. ke lian my legs.. for wking soo hard! =D

yea.. i was still decidin whether to wk for another wk or 2..

cos tis job is realli tough! CMI ah~~~~

make mi stand for so mani hrs u noe? =(

e pay nt v.high oso.. cos no transport fee.. i tink stil can make it.. but if higher beta.. LOL..

e onli prob is i hav to wake up so early u noe?

everyday 7am.. diao! wakin up early is my "zhi ming shang" for my life i tink..

n no matter hw EARLY i went to bed.. i cannot solve tis prob..

so hw? no choice.. ke lian my mama.. hav to wake mi up.. makin her "morning" miserable.. hehe.. cos my temper 'not tt gd' when i hav nt enuff slp... opps! =X

anyways.. i hope tt tis holiday can end abit faster..

so tt i can stop wking earlier.. LOL.. ps ah nt tt i am tt lazi.. but i m v.tired!

but i hope tt e holi nvr ends so i wun hav to go to sch! hahaha..

wad a life we hav got.. so hard to choose between tis 2 choices!! argh~~

n i hope tt i cld hav outings soon! im bored to death ah!

wking life juz dun suit mi.. =X

study life oso..

if a job can make mi sing whole day i oso dun mind.. MUHAHAHA..

anyways.. i'll be stopping here!! fainting````

muacks.. cya again my lovely blog!

2007-08-11T00:31:00.000-07:00

i wanted to luv myself.. i want to hav happiness.. peaceful life..

but i hate my life.. i hate it..

im feeling miserable..

i hav a family.. im more fortunate then those whu doesnt hav one.. but it's full of quarrelings..

i have a r/s.. sld be fortunate then those whu doesnt hav one.. but i cant feel e happiness it sld bring..

i hav many frens.. compared to those whu doesnt hav much frens.. i sld be glad.. but i cant sense any true frenship.. onli for some..

i guess.. life is lyk tt.. but i cant tolerate.. im feeling sad.. im feeling lost again..

i hate tis kinda feeling.. feeling lonely sometimes..

i juz nd some peaceful life..

i juz nd someone whu understand mi..

i juz dun want to be hurt anymore..

happi 42th natinal day!! ^^

2007-08-09T10:56:00.000-07:00

Wishing Singapore a very very Happy Happy Birthday! Happy National Day, Singapore!

haha.. although it's alreadi over le.. due to doing my reports for e whole day, i onli got e chance to blog in e middle of e nite.. tired!

im so tired~~ after bloggin i will be gg to slp le..

so "yi han".. i cannot go watch NDP at marina.. dun hav tickets.. sad~~

n also dun hav e time n companies to go watch fireworks.. hais..

my holiday juz past.. wif a undescribale feeling! argh``..

anyways.. after ND will be our exams week le.. gona study hard for my exams..

I AM NOT GOING TO FAIL ANY MODULES THIS SEMSTER! I AM NOT GOING TO REPEAT ANY MODULES!! I AM NOT~

ya.. i hope i realli can pass and do not repeat any modules any more.. not again! pls god~ not anymore for mi.. =(

anyways, my darling tml is having his exam le.. so i am here to wish him GOOD LUCKS for his exam!! though i noe he wldnt see.. but i stil wana wish him.. LOL..

and also wana wish shang gd lucks for her exam oso.. and gd luck for sy's presentation! yes.. everyone his my lucks.. can pass le! haha..

but i need to leave some for myself.. LOL.. cos i got to pass my exams oso! =)

n tml is my cousin's bday!! i am gg ti wish him a V.V.Happi BirthdaY!

HAPPY BDAY TO U~

HAPI BDAY TO U~

HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO JEREY!!

HAPPI BDAY TO U!

*muacks. luv u lots!

yea.. finally.. i am gg to say good bye to my blog le..

good nights!

breaking free ah~~~

2007-08-07T17:34:00.000-07:00

hmm~ early in e morning 8 o'clock..
i was alreadi in sch.. *yawnZ* im tired.. LOL..

早起的鸟儿有菜吃吗？
但是我现在很饱了。。哈哈。。
以吃了早餐。。突然很想睡觉。。

こんいちは。。
わたしわびしです。。
どうぞよろしぐう。。

im juz too bored.. mayb abit of craziness dashing.. runing.. crawling all over my mind.. LOL..
and now im listening to "high school musical" songs.. damn nice i tell u.. LOL..
and many many more new albums that hav been ‘火热当中’LOL..
trying to start myself anew wif these new songs? o.O?
anyway.. i juz nw nth to blog.. mayb abit ltr.. when i do my reports till bored le den i come n update more.. LOL..

yea im breaking free~~

our song..

2007-08-03T21:38:00.001-07:00

Lyricist: 王碧诗/蔡欣怡
Melodist:
Arrangement:
Performer: 蔡欣怡/王碧诗

Verse 1

BS: 不知从什么时候和你碰面
是一种需要
SY: 不知从什么时候和你一起
我才会微笑
只要看见你轻轻一笑
什么事情都不再重要

Verse 2

BS: 伤心的时候需要肩膀依靠
只有你知道
SY: 开心的时候嘴角微微的笑
烦恼都忘掉
让我们唱着歌闹一闹
有你在我身边多美妙

Chorus

如果有一天你离开了我
我的世界会只shen下寂寞
我伤心我难过
但也挽回不了什么

如果有一天你放弃了我
我的世界会没了笑容
我孤独我寂寞
但这一切也顺着时间变成泡沫

p.s: yee u still rmb tis song? muhahaha.. lyk lesbian song.. so sad no melody.. LOL..

i wan peace~

2007-08-03T09:32:00.000-07:00

To care or not to care?

sometimes i tink everythin oso dun care is e rite or best choice to do.. release n prevent mi frm getting me any troubles or even geeting negative effects..
but nt to care makes mi feel juz nt rite..
i feel v.angry abt it.. argh~~ i wan to "FA XIE"!!!!
juz no mood to continue.. though i hav lots to say..

confused..

sy's day celebration fotos!

2007-07-29T23:54:00.000-07:00

hmm~ im here to upload sy's bday fotos~~ ^^ foto time!!

tis is e present we gave sinyee ^^

haha.. cos cant find any sun flower.. so we replace sun flower wif tis sweet cookie!

AS & SY

SY & BS

3 of US!

at NYDC.. having dinner wif ms chua!! animal farm were oso thr!!

most of them ordered tis.. LOL..

tis is mine! yummy..

hmm.. tis is eng's? i cannot rmb le.. haha..

but i definitely rmb tis is kj's de spag.. cos onli he din order baked rice.. LOL..

yes n tis! ANG's cow dung baked rice.. =X LOL..

when e others went to ATM ti withdraw $$, when sy n some of e guys went up t esplanade.. mi n as went to buy someting.. n we walk pass tis pillar! OMG~ we luv it so much! cos it make us look slimmer! muhaha..

dun believe? U see e EFFECT! =D

OMG.. it was so so nice takin pic wif tis pillar effect.. LOL.. so paiseh!! ^^

yes.. at e roof top of esplanade! sy had her wonderful bday celebration wif us animal farm thr! though she lyk went thr twice during her bday? LOL..

wishes granted by OBS! ^^

cute nt rite? but onli cute! she is beautiful~ (cos she tink ppl saying her cute means she isnt beautiful.. cute = ugly but adorable.. -.-")

haha.. grp foto1..

grp foto2!

hahaha.. guys were having thr "guy's talk".. o.O?

realise 2 ppl missing? find out whu they R!

hmm~ wad is tis "zhen" called ah? -.-"

guys wif SY without kj n ming.. tink they 2 went dating? LOL..

gals wif SY! ^^

EMO section~ ah niu: 80%, PASS! =)

hmm~ ang: 70%, PASS! but he seems abit lyk drunk! LOL..

OMG.. eng: 95%, Winner! *clap clap* he lks realli emo lo! haha..

ming: FAIL! i duno hw to grade him! LOL.. he was trying to hide frm e camera!!

kj: 50%, just pass! LOL.. cos he say he duno hw to act emo.. LOL.. but gd try! =)

shang: 90%, 1st runner-up! LOL.. i tink she is oso v.gd at ACTING emo lo.. haha

LOL.. 72%, well-done! one of e most emo pic sy has taken..LOL.. she say she will laugh! dun make her laugh! hahaha..

smile^^

lesing again!!!!

time to go hm le.. last shot wif sy! KJ & SY..

ANG & SY =)

NIU & SY

MING & SY

ME & SY! (*onli tis was taken by shang! shang u see e effect!! LOL)

SHANG & SY ^^.. eng duno y dunwan to take.. =)

im stress!!

2007-07-29T23:29:00.000-07:00

haha.. one pic taken onli.. i look so damn ugly! =(
haha.. eng were singing v.highly?? =P nice voice he has..

haha.. niu were having fun oso!! ^^ onli ANG duno doing wad.. HAHAHA..

they were having FUN after i left!! *bish*..

yes man! finally i can blog.. luckily i tried to log in to check if it is stil "ki siao"..
waa.. haven been bloggin since duno hav mani decades ago..

my blog were full of spider webs n dust.. got to clean it up b4 nobody dare to come to view my blog again!!

anyways.. didnt go to sch again!! hais.. feeling damn tired recently.. missing classes since last wk.. n my exam started tis thurs!! cos duno y tis module started to hav exam so early!! it was lyk 3 wk ago b4 e real exams.. WTH!

haven started studyin cos got tons of wk to do.. and e more wk i hav, e more lazy i am.. cos im feeling v.v.stress..

anyway.. no matter wad i got to study.. so im gg to finish up all my projects by today n im gg to start studying frm tml~ if nt im realli dead! i dun wan to repeat any module tis sem. if nt i tink im gg to quit sch le~ dun wana waste any of my time on tis toopid course..

anyway went to KBOX wif animal farm last sat. muhaha.. it was great.. v.fun.. got to sing at last.. haven been gg to KBOX for lyk 2 mths? my mouth were damn itchy! hahaha.. but sad ah.. got to leave early.. they were having more funs after i left.. LOL.. taking videos and duno doin wad more funny stuffs.. n LOL.. they stayed thr till 3 plus.. which we sld be leaving at 2pm acutalli.. k-lunch ma.. i tink cos i noe e ppl thr.. so they giv mi face.. muhaha.. jkjk.. mayb cos they dun nd e rm.. LOL.. but they were lyk so kind Lo.. haha.. 2 hrs plus isnt enuff for mi~ im gg to sing again during e holidays!! yes yes i am!! mayb at least sing a 5hrs!! HAHAHA..

hais.. hw i wish holiday can come faster.. but exam pls come slower.. but e fact is exam sure come b4 holiday.. SIAN AH~~

im totally shag.. my brain lyk nt wking properly.. hands n legs dun wana move.. but my mind id moving twice as fast as usual.. *headache*..
anyways.. got to go le.. will TRY to blog as often as possible! CYA*

2007-07-14T08:22:00.001-07:00

What Ong Bi Shi Means

O is for Orderly

N is for Naive

G is for Goofy

B is for Bouncy

I is for Impressive

S is for Silky

H is for Hot

I is for Insane

What Does Your Name Mean?

2007-07-14T08:02:00.000-07:00

You are 80% Cancer

How Cancer Are You?

2007-07-14T07:59:00.000-07:00

Your Japanese Name Is...

Sakurako Nanba

2007-07-14T07:52:00.001-07:00

You Don't Have a Big Mouth

In fact, you like to keep your life very private.
You figure that your personal life is no one's business.
And if people try to pry, they'll end up unsuccessful.
You're a big mystery to people - and that's fine by you!

2007-07-14T07:48:00.000-07:00

Your Envy Quotient: 47%

You are an envious person, but only at times.
Perhaps certain situations trigger your envy. Or maybe you're especially jealous when you're feeling insecure.
Instead of letting that green monster out, work on making your own life better.
And then maybe people will be envious of you.

2007-07-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: June 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

happy birthday ms sin yee tai tai =)

2007-07-08T10:31:00.001-07:00

haha! ytd was miss chua sin yee's bday..
promised or said before to update my blog on her bday.. so here m i to update..
haiss a pity nt to update my bday celebrations.. but i will update it when im free.. LOL..
nw i'll update her's 1st.. =)

went out to celebrate sy's bday wif animal farms's animals!
they r as, ang, ah niu, ming, eng, kj and mi!
meet as 1st.. in town.. went ard to complete our mission.. den after tt meet sy!
acutalli half way thru our mission.. we alreadi met sy at cine..
suppose to meet her after our mission.. so we asked sy to go sit dwn rest at e food court so tt we r able to complete our mission.. LOL..
anyways.. after meeting sy.. we contact animal farm to meet at the place we r having our dinner at.. which is e "nydc"! Zzz.. suppose to giv sy a surprise.. so we did all our contacting animal farm in a secretive ways..
yesh! finally reached e place after a LONG walk frm cine.. omg.. we r exhausted.. n damn HOT u noe? sweating lyk S****! haha..
lookin here n thr to find nydc.. i was prayin tt they will hide themselves properly so tt sy wun see them in anyways.. hoping tt we wun bump into each other..

WHO NOES!!!! god is makin fun of us.. we meet each other juz outside NYDC! hais..
i was damn shock to see them ah! muhaha.. mi n shang immediately use our "super body" to block sy.. hopin tt she din see them..tot sy din saw them.. cos she was lyk bz using her hp.. LOL.. she still 'pei he' wo men lo.. Zzz.. den after i tot i we managed to block animal farm.. i turn to look at sy.. she was laughin lyk a pretty princess.. -.-"
she saw them le la! haiyoyo.. no more surprise le.. =( haha.. damn funny la tt situation.. LOL..
but it's ok.. sy say she was still bit surprise to see them thr as she realli did nt expect to see them.. stil beta den nth!
went in to hav our dinner.. huray! sy was v.hungry as she onli ate half a bowl of dao suan.. LOL.. so we faster select our food n faster order le..
yea! e food came.. *eating process*...
suddenly.. i realised tt everyone seems to be v.full.. den we (3 gals) den found out tt those guys acutalli juz had a mac meal b4 them came to meet us.. o.O? no wonder them seems to be eating until so xin ku.. omg man.. guys! u all were so great! nt hungry still can acc. us to eat.. LOL..
noe wad? eng, ang n mi were e onli 3 to finished out food completely!! yes yes.. im a hero! LOL.. e others left abit here n thr.. cos e portion realli quite big.. LOL.. ltr on i oso found out tt shang oso ate some food earlier on b4 she came to meet us.. poor shang n guys.. haha..
hmm~ after eating.. sy suggested to go esplanade! she wans to see e ndp ting.. duno call wad.. but tt place was realli beautiful.. so romantic.. so nice jiu dui le! =)
before heading to esplanade.. we wanted to buy a cake for sy.. haiyoyo.. used many man power to zhi kai her u noe? she tinks tt today everyone was too secretive le.. so she v.huai yi us lo.. haha.. as managed to bring sy to toilet.. so mi n e rest went to choose a slides of cake for her.. a choco cake!!! damn choco i tell u.. LOL.. duno wad 'grandmother cake??'
anyways.. after tt she took bus 171 to esplanade le.. =)

hmm~ hard to describe wad has happend at marina.. will tell u more abt esplanade..
haha~ went up to e roof top.. always go thr went i visit marina square..
we took lots n lots of fotos thr.. funny de.. memorable de.. cute de.. posy de.. mani mani ah.. duo dao ni shu bu qing ah!
due to as haven send us e fotos yet.. i m nt able to upload e fotos.. will upload when i receive it.. haha.. =)

anyways.. i m so tired le.. got to go slp soon.. tml 7am muz wake up u noe? nw 2am le!! 5hrs slp.. hais.. nt enuff ah!! 24 hrs is nt enuff for mi! =(

juz wana wish sy a v.v.happi bday..
hope u lyk everyting tt we hav done for u..
tot it is realli nt tt surprising.. but i noe u lyk it de.. haha..
may All ur wishes come true..
may u find ur true love soon..
mayb everyting for u went smoothly n peacefully..
*our frenship will last for tis life n whenever u need a person to listen to u.. i'll be here!
i love you.. *muacks muacks*
i wan return kiss! LOL..

生日快乐！祝你永远幸福！

chalet happenings..

2007-06-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

omg.. sry to my blog..
previously went to chalet.. so din update..
den came bak frm chalet.. too tired le.. so rested for 2 days..
ended up rested duno hw mani days.. no mood to update..
finally.. today.. i hav a beta mood le.. so i can update le wor!
psps guys.. i noe my blog rotting le.. haha..
so came to cleared up e dust.. sweep away e spider webs.. =)
hmm~ enjoyed e chalet abit here n thr.. fun n laughter..
but v.v.tired e 2nd night.. cos we went cycling.. omg.. legs breaking.. cramping..
aiyo.. lazy to eliberate more.. those participated alreadi wrote so mani in e animal farm's blog le..
so im nt gg to tok more abt it.. but guys.. ya were great in writing events sia..
come.. write more for mi to read.. LOL.. =X
anyways.. were rotting since last fri.. 5 days counted today..
im dead.. haven touch any of my projects.. hais..
gona ask my frens alreadi.. im so shit*...
yea.. nw im gg to upload some fotos to end my blog! =)

on the way to chalet~~

omg.. nice, clean rm!

wad r e guys doin? -.-"

BBQ time~

crazying~~

i tink tis is v.nice.. artistic..

erm.. o.O?

mi! omg.. scary~

relaxing holiday!

2007-06-09T12:10:00.000-07:00

im back!!! haha..
after so long.. finally im back to blog.. previously was realli in e low mood..
hmm~ today was e 2nd of my holiday.. so relaxing.. tot it's stil v.bored.. but at least im trying n starting to calm dwn myself.. nt tt stress.. nt tt tired.. nt tt unhappi..
but i duno tis kinda heavnly days for mi wil last hw long.. i hope is eternity.. LOL!
ytd went out wif sy n as after their CT.. last day of CT for almost everyone! so happi for everybody.. went out to celebrate n take a break..
we went to party world to sing.. at orchard.. acutallli we didn't planned to go sing de.. but realli too bored le.. den oso cant tink of tings to do.. thrfore.. *ping ping prang prang~* our wallets r full of holes~ im broke again! so money.. hais.. LOL.. dead!
spent 4 hrs inside partyworld.. but it seems to be lyk 7 hrs.. so long can? tink we din sing for too long le.. no stamina liao.. muhaha~ im old! we old liao lo!

they so sweet hor? LOL..i m so ugly can!!!

3 funny gals!

yea.. above were some fotos tt we took inside partyworld.. acutalli din take enuff nice fotos for mi to upload.. haha.. next time muz take more!!

hmm~ today meet him.. at my hse.. he weren't feeling well.. so we din go out.. tot we planned to go out.. played some games thru out e afternoon.. slept for quite some time oso.. cos he was tired.. sick will feel tired easily.. =)

was quite worried for him.. cos he seems to hav slight fever.. but he insist nt to hav medicine.. cos he said taking medicine weren't gd acutalli.. =S no choice.. i cant force him.. hope he will get well soon..

yea.. he went hm in e evening.. den i continued to play my games till night.. as usual.. nth to do ma.. aiyoyo! so bored can! help~

yea.. slpin soon.. startin to get sleepy le.. finally! wa~ nw alreadi 3 plus le.. i cant imagine.. i tot stil early.. i stil wan slp early de sia.. =(

gd nights!

i m tired of studyin~~

2007-06-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

sry to my poor blog.. previously wasnt in a gd mood.. so din update for a v.v.long time le..
hais.. nw.. cos of my CTs.. i din update oso.. my mind was full of FRM.. ELH.. TEC n PYM.. no more space for my own feelings to write le.. im so damn stress n feeling sick.. haha..
so im gg to update soon! tis thurs! sure will update.. cos its my last day of CT n i'll be FREE! at least free frm stress till next wk! hehe..
im gg to rest soon!! jiayou my fren~ jiayou ONG BI SHI! =S

我很全世界！

2007-05-25T13:45:00.000-07:00

你们这些恶心的家伙！
请消失。。请离我远一点！
别装着纯真的样子！别装着很有交情的样子！
很可笑。。很恶心！
我讨厌你们！
我很全世界！

2007-05-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

YEA! finally im able to use colours again! im so damn happi.. haha.. i found out e prob le.. nvr tot tt i m so clever! LOL..

anyways.. had my jap speaking test today.. it was horrible~ im kinda disappointed in myself.. =(

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しゅみはカラオケとインタネットです。
どうぞようろしごう。
さようなら。

its was fun learning japanese.. but it was hard.. im nt gd at it..
yup.. i tink i didnt did well for e test.. mayb half upon e full marks.. hais..
i was v.v.nervous.. tt i forgot almost everyting..
but it's all over le..

e class ended at 10am.. which was 2 hrs earlier.. LOL..
waited for sy to come n as to finish her class.. i went to reformat my lappy..
wif e acc. by colin.. e journey was nt tt bored..
cos im new to reformatting com. , he acc. mi thr.. n he help mi lots..
thx to him.. if nt im dead for sure.. mayb my lappy wun b able to repair le..

after tt.. went to meet sy.. den meet as oso..
sally, sj n cy came along wif as.. we ate our lunch at e atrium..
after tt.. sy went for her class..
soon after sy left.. sally they all went bak hm le..
as acc. mi to stay in sch.. cos im stil dling msn.. haha..
den she oso acc. mi take bus 61 hm.. LOL..
we saw renfred.. he slip~~~ =X
n i went to meet TAG at wm..
we went to mac after tt.. went to wm again to xue ping ard..
i saw YQ n esther! LOL.. YQ say he saw JX ard.. but i nvr got to c him.. =)
yea.. den we went bak to gombak after slacking whole afternoon ard bukitbatok..
so bored man! cannot stand.. zzz..
went hm soon after tt.. haha..

tml i'll be meeting one of my jap classmate..
he failed his jap speaking test ah.. he asked mi for help.. LOL..
duno i can help much anot.. but im trying to help him to revise abit b4 he go for his retest on thurs.. hope he can do well tis time..
nvr tot tt i can help others.. summore in jap.. LOL.. i hope i can b a gd teacher.. haha..

yea.. im having a BAD headache nw.. im gg to rest nw.. =(

*hate being sick.. its terrible.. hais*

2007-05-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

my BLOG got prob!!
i cant change e colour of my font!!! *sobs~
hais.. white is so dull.. no colourful!! cant express my emotions..

2007-05-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

hmm~ kinda stress..
tues im gg to hav my jap speaking test le..
im v.worried.. cos haven realli start to pract..
im in a bad mood these days.. im nt happi..
i juz wish to avoid everyting..
im so tired.. exhausted..

I HAV A FUCKING IDIOT LIVING WIF MI..

2007-05-18T04:00:00.000-07:00

hmm~ after hearing much frm his gf..
i hope i m realli wrong of doin tis..
i juz hope tt he cld be matured enough to change his attitude towards others..
i scolded him.. sayin words tt acutalli hurt him.. his gf told mi..
but it was for his own gd..

wtf..
he juz came bak frm other after we quarrelled..
i tink im nt wrong.. i heard him sayin tt he wasnt wrong..
he is still tinking tt it was my fault..
n im totally freak out..
tinking of giving in to him..
n i wun.. he choosed e path..

my mum n his gf both said tt i sldnt hav hurt him by saying those tings..
but after hearing wad he say..
i totaly disagree..
pls man.. dun ask mi to giv in to him anymore..
i tink its totally nt worth..
IM SO DAMN ANGRY..

i hope i can die peacefully.. nt sinfully..

2007-05-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

hmm~ i tink im totally hopeless..
din go to sch for 3 days le.. mon (mc).. ytd self-mc.. today.. almost half e day din go sch.. will be gg ltr at 3 for SBR lecture.. cos i missed all his tut alreadi.. tink i sldnt hav miss any of his lesson again.. if nt i tink i'll be debarred soon.. V.V soon!
hais.. mon i was sick.. ytd i m nt feeling well.. n oso tink im v.tired.. juz cant wake up.. today oso.. ytd do SBR till 3am.. realli cannot tahan le.. nt feelin well plus im damn tired.. i went to slp.. doin onli till half way..
today morning.. cant wake up again! WTH m i doin? i dun understand.. y y y?
i dun wana miss lessons de.. but i juz dun feel lyk gg.. n i duno y m i freaking sick these days.. i tink cos of e stupid weather.. hot n cold.. cold n hot..! n im feeling damn moodless.. moody at e same time.. my emotions.. all messed up.. im feeling sad.. feeling lost..
i hate sch.. but i hate wking too.. dun wana step into e wking world so fast.. yet i dun wish to stay in tis meaningless studying world..
help~ im dying soon.. wif lots of stress.. unhappiness..
nobody cld understand hw i feel.. feeling miserable..
I HOPE I CAN DIE.. IN A PEACEFUL MANNER..
I WANA LEAVE TIS SHANG XIN ZHI DI..
I DUN FEEL HAPPI EVER SINCE I IN POLY.. POLY LIFE JUZ SUX TO E CORE!
i wan bak my sec sch life.. i miss it.. i juz cant forget those gd memories..
i juz m nt myself.. nt e old mi anymore..
cos tings cant change when it has alreadi happened..
everyting juz changes.. without my notice.. without their notice..
changed.. nt anymore da same.. =(

happy 48th birthday to my lovely papa! =D

2007-05-08T07:31:00.000-07:00

hmm~ today after my IS class.. i went to meet ai shang at blk 34.. however, he was at blk 50.. she tot blk 50 WAS blk 34.. LOL.. i asked her wad lv she was at n which classrm she was in.. oso asked her which BLK she was at oso.. she told mi she was at blk 34 lvl 3 1st classrm.. hmm ok.. acutalli was waiting at blk 51.. juz release frm class.. tot she might b at blk 1 as or IS classes were mostl at blk 50.. as she told mi tt her class was at blk 34.. i went dwn o look for n.. to wait for her i mean.. den i went all e way up to blk 34, lvl 3 and was trying to walk pass e 1st classrm to see whether m i heading for e right classrm anot..

den to my realise.. there weren't anyone in tt classrm.. nor was it a classrm.. it was a LAB?! LOL.. e whole stretch of lvl was EMPTY! i waswondering did i see wrongly frm e msg shang had sent to me.. so i went to see e msg again.. n i was corect ah! blk 34 lvl 3 rm 1 wad.. LOL.. den i msg her again to make sure again..

thr she go.. blk 34 lvl 3 1st classrm.. u look inside can c mi le.. tis is wad tt cutie pie told mi.. i was totally blank inside my head.. de i msg her.. shang! dun scare mi leh.. no ppl ah.. haiyoyo~!

yup.. i cldn't wait anymore as i m quite scared of tis kinda "weird" situation.. i went up to e 4th floor to hand up my MC. cos i was sick e previous day.. hmm! everyting settled..

finally.. sy call mi le.. she reached sch alreadi.. we gg to meet at canteen 1 to hav our lunch.. so were shang.. she called mi n said she released frm class alreadi.. n asked mi to meet her at lvl 1 of blk 34.. LOL..

when i reached e grd floor.. i cldn't c a single soul.. nt even a shadow.. muhaha!

shang called mi again.. cos we haven meet up.. she asked mi.. whr r u? i reach le.. den my reply was.. i oso reach le ah!? whr r u? we keep sayin we r at lvl 1 (same blk) but acutalli we r at diff. blk..

do u noe wad? shang ws at blk 50 ma.. ofcos she cldn't c mi! onli when i asked which location were she at of blk 34.. is it BE AXIS? den she finally realised tt she was at blk 5o!!!

haiyoyo~! shang ah.. nt enough slp huh? haha.. tot 10am lesson? stil nt yet waked? hehe.. jkin la.. but realli FUNNY lo! c! i can write so s LONG!

anyway.. after we meet up.. we straight away go n meet sy le.. =)

after havin lunch.. they went to buy desserts.. yea.. tis was duno wad but sy bluff mi.. she say tis is e "cold" version of "dou hua".. n i realli BELIEVE! hais.. always gt cheated! ah~!

hmm~ after we had our lunch.. we went to e library to play board games! LOL.. so far i onli played twice lo.. gota go thr play more often.. NP is R*** ma.. LOL!

den nt long after tt.. ard 45 mins.. mi n sy headed to e bus to go botanic garden.. our field trip for landscape management.. acutalli it was quite interesting.. but e SUN was damn HOT! u cannot imagine de.. realli v.v.hot ah! we all were sweating lyk HELL! haha..

below were some sceneries tt i tot it was beautiful.. cos taken by mi.. LOL..

waterfall! (small one) LOL..

tis plant sy say nice.. muz take muz take.. LOL..

i beg sy to take a foto wif mi lo.. she at 1st dunwan de cos she say so sweaty.. nt pretty so she dunwan.. haha..

see.. so pretty.. juz luv her so much! haha..

v.de CMI!

OUR shadow!

do u noe wad m i doin? i was kissing her! she asked mi to do so.. LOL..

i was sweating lyk heaven! den i become a fairy! =S

she was laughing at my pose! so im gona huant her!

yes! n nvreless.. today is my PAPA's birthday wor! haha.. so happi.. i went dwn personally to buy his cake wor! but too happi liao.. i acutalli bought a "happy mother day" cake! n i din realise. LOL.. but it's ok ma.. papa oso can equal to mama de ma.. both parents.. hehe!

hais.. but blur mi.. i noe my papa is 48 yrs old le.. i go n want 4 candles onli!!! argh~! 40 yrs old is my mama de.. too happi till i make such a BIG mistake.. dunomy papa will sad ma.. hope wun.. realli dun forget hw YOUNG is my dad.. juz a MISTAKE! heex..

hw beautiful was e cake! =D

i quickly take dwn tis bai se ping.. haha..

te deng! tis is my papa! handsome ba? still look v.v.young ma hor? hehe..

wishing upon e star!

tot i tink tis sentence is damn old fashion liao.. but i stil hope tt his wishes will come true! =)

i jus luv him lots!

dad! i luv u! *shys*

i wana celebrate mani mani of his bday!!

he cut e cake.. my kou shui dropping dwn le.. =P

tis was 1 of e bai se ping.. he gave my mama.. haha.. so sweet lo! my mama sure happi till cannot slp! LOL..

hmm~ hwever.. e bday celebration din end wif a gd one.. cos i quarrelled if my idiotic brother.. he acutalli forgotten my dad's bday.. n i was lyk so angry lo.. i asked him if he were to at least share e cake $ wif us.. tot i noe he dun hav any.. he cld return us bak when he hav.. but he was lyk sayin.. WTH.. u noe i dun hav any den u stil wan ask frm mi.. so i said tt he sld nt eat e cake since he din pay for it.. under anger.. n cos he wanted his FACE.. he said he wun eat e cake.. n e quarrel started n ended.. wif my papa listening.. showin a sad face..

i m so bu xiao! hais.. sldnt hav quarrelled wif my idiotic bro.. my i cant contol my anger. he dun earn $ for my parents alreadi nvm le.. stil always get $ frm my parents.. they alreadi no much $ le.. still hav to yan zhe ge jia.. still hav to let him anyhw spent e hard-earn $! wo zhen de kan b guo qu.. i hate his wu zhi! he alreadi 17 yrs old le. stil duno hw to tink.. always lend $ frm us to satisfy his GF's needs.. den ad abt us? his FAMILY?

inside his heart.. dun even say hav US.. sibilings.. i tink he dun even hav my PARENTS! i realli feel so heart-broken.. to c tt my parents wk until so tired.. still hav to let him anyhw spent their $!!

he's nt schling le.. no vacancies in ITE.. cos of his own fault.. n he wasnt finding jobs to earn $ for himself.. everyday staying at hm to slack.. play online games.. find GF.. find frens.. taking $ frm my parents.. lending $ frm us.. smoking.. WTF!

i tink he is totally hopeless.. nt tt i wana look dwn on my OWN bro.. but see wad he has done for his OWN family..

i tried to understand his feelings.. his tinking.. trying to help him.. giving him chances. TOTALLY NO USE! IM JUZ PROOFING MYSELF TO ACT LYK AN IDIOT!

he dun understand hw much effort we hav done.. onli look at e BAD side of us.. lyk scolding him.. tot it was for his own gd. but he nvr look at e GOOD side of us.. HAIS!

dunwan end my blog wif such a idiotic message..

other den tt.. i tink i gone thru quite smoothly today..

tink tml wif b tough.. hav to see a lecturer.. due to my attendance.. hais.. tink i gona go sch.. stop falling sick le.. if nt.. im dead..

tot i realli feel lyk getting sick.. cos.. i dun wan to go to sch! =(

希望明天会跟好！加油！

不要后悔。。

2007-05-06T10:54:00.000-07:00

如果真的结束了。。

我该怎么吧？我会伤心吗？我会掉眼泪吗？我会难过吗？

什么事都事事难料。。

今天。。满满的笑容。。

明天。。却泪流满面。。

今天。。开心地笑着。。

明天。。缺一个人走着。。

今天。。开心的手牵手。。聊聊天。。

明天。。却掉头就走。。不会回头。。

今天。。说着：“我爱你！”。。

明天。。却说：“分手吧！”。。

我觉得。。我们应该把我当下。。

机会不是时常有的。。

错过了。。就没有机会了。。

没有机会说了。。也没有机会做了。。

所以。。朋友们。。要把握机会哦！

不要后悔。。

如果错过了。。你一定会后悔的。。

你一定会。。后悔的。。

一定会。。一定。。

我希望。。每一位朋友都能幸福。。

你们要幸福哦！

my heart was broken..

2007-05-03T11:21:00.000-07:00

hmm~ i cant slp.. duno y.. =(
missed him much.. tink i still nt used to be tt independent.. having to meet him e most onli twice a wk.. but he nvr noe hw much i missed him.. hw much i wan him to acc. mi..
used to meet everyday last time.. but nw.. i cant even hav a proper conversation wif him..
other den those days tt we meet up.. we onli used to chat on e fone or sms..
onli sms a few msg.. den always.. we will hav nth much to tok abt.. chatted on e fone every nite.. but e duration is lyk less den a 15 mins break time.. onli sometimes tt i m lucky.. i cld chat wif him abit longer.. lack of time! we cant communicate well wif each other..
he doesnt noe.. even if i were to tell him abt it.. he juz wun understand..
to him.. i tink it's ok or normal.. but to mi.. i juz feel tt everyting is wrong..
wad m i suspose to do? i hav no idea..
juz to pass each day wif a broken heart.. nvr b able to mend.. it's bleeding on e day ever since we knew each other.. i guessed..
or mayb it's my problem.. im juz asking too much? not being reasonable?
i guessed im juz being somebody.. or mayb nobody..
i hope.. i wish.. i hav a wish tt wld be granted..
i juz hope for more time.. to be wif him.. but i guess.. tis wish will nvr come true..
nvr.. it's e fact.. i knew it long ago..
but.. i juz hope tings will change..

happi bday to u darlin!

2007-05-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

hmm~ today was his bday.. 21st bday.. on labour day.. 1st of may =)

we din go anywhr.. juz stay at my hse.. celebrating peacefully.. watching televsion.. cracking jokes.. though we quarreled before tt.. however everyting ended nicely.. better than nth.. i stil tot tt everyting will b ruin by tt stupid quarrelings.. haha.. =)

anyways.. cos i m quite "broke" le.. so din manage to make his bday celeration a grand one.. will hav chances next time.. though 21st bday sld b quite impt.. but he is ok wif tt.. cos he dun realli lyks to celebrate bday.. Zzz..

haha.. he was eating happily.. the small little cake i bought for him! ^^
he wore e shirt tt i bought for him for his bday present!! he lurves it lots! haha...

juz wana say: happi bday my darling! 21 years old liao hor! haha.. treat mi better n dun make mi sad anymore okies? haha..

aiyah.. he wun noe.. cos he dun read my blog.. nvm la.. juz hope can le.. haha..

hope everyting will be fine tml.. cos schling again.. holiday is over.. hwwk!! hais..

lucky tml my lesson starts at 11am.. nt tt early.. though ends at 5pm.. but cos i onli hav 4 hrs of tut all tgt.. LOL..

lastly.. he lyks everyting i hav do for him today.. a msg wif my singing of a happi bday song for him.. e present.. e cake.. LOL.. n im gg to make him a ppt ltr.. =)

^^ lots of lurves~``

memories!

2007-04-29T11:13:00.000-07:00

juz love him so much! *shy*

can c any diff. to my hair?

my happiest moment in my 2007 history! =)

my happiest day tis yr! =D

2007-04-29T10:52:00.000-07:00

today i hav my happiest day wif him..
at last.. i can feel tt going out wif him.. having his accompany is a great ting..
went to tzu chi wif him today.. although i was v.tired.. n lazy to wake up..
but tink forcing myself to wake up is a rite ting.. at least i wun miss out e fun..
e whole day was lyk abit boring.. but wif him beside mi.. cracking jokes cos i kept suaning him.. its was kinda sweet n i feel so xingfu le.. haha..
yea.. went to walk walk at east point (simei) as we tot thr will hav food for us to hav our dinner.. god noes.. NTH! but some ex. restaurant.. so we decided to go bak to WM to eat after awhile more of shopping..
yea.. took train bak to batok.. e journey was long.. yet short.. long as it was realli damn long.. simei to batok.. but short cos e time flies when i am wif him.. it's lyk tt.. duno y.. juz hope for longer time..he is always tt bz.. cant acc. mi much.. onli meet him twice a wk.. =(
anyways.. went to eat at foodcourt.. it was lyk 9plus PM le.. all shops r closing le.. muhaha.. luckily we managed to hav our dinner.. both tired n hungry!! LOL..
hais.. but i hav to eat super FAST.. as u all noe i usually dun eat tt fast.. but cos it's alreadi so late le.. he hav to rush hm.. =( so hav to pei he him.. i eat till my stomach bursting le.. =X LOL..
juz hope tt time cld stop thr.. n i can hav dinner wif him as long as possible.. but e reality doesnt show any tong qing xin to mi.. LOL.. nvm den..
went to interchange to wait for our buses.. his bus come so fast.. god dun giv us more time to b tgt.. so sad lo.. den after he left.. i waited for my bus alone.. so lonely.. but soon.. i reached hm too.. =)
n i realised.. i gt tons of hwwk to do.. all nt touched yet.. 1st ting i do is.. SWITCH ON E LAPPY!
but nt to use for chatting n playin games.. i hav to rush to mel to hav my TEC quiz dne b4 12.. n it was 10 plus went i reached hm.. hais.. everyting is so rush.. i m gg crazy v.v.soon!
i juz hate sch tt much.. i dun wan o study.. i wan peace! nt stress! i nd peaceful time!!!
TML IS MON LE! SO SIAN! I HAV TO GO TO SCH AGAIN! =(
30th of april.. last day of april.. yep! tues will b 1st of may! (labour day!)
my darling's bday! so so happi.. as 1stly.. it's his bday! means i can celebbrate his impt day wif him.. 2ndly.. i can meet him again! 3rdly.. he is off frm wk! he can rest! =D
hais.. but after tues.. wed i comin bak v.v.fast! i noe de.. tues sure pass v.fast de.. cos happi moments r always SHORT! =(

n my slping time r oso v.v.SHORT NW! 2 plus le.. 7 plus wake up.. 5 HOURS!! =(

没有阳光的迷宫。。

2007-04-28T11:35:00.000-07:00

有人说，当爱情来的时候，人会变的更美丽。
有人说，当失去爱的时候，人会变得很憔悴。
有人说，找到自我的时候，人会变得有自信。
有人说，当你失去自我时，人会变得失魂落魄。

但往往人们都不清楚他们到底在想些什么。。
不知道他们要的是什么。。有的或没有的是什么。。
迷失了方向却不知觉。。傻傻的在原地踏步。。

现实就是那么残酷。。
走不出阴影。。永远都看不到阳光。。
只能停留在没有阳光的迷宫。。

unexciting day..

2007-04-26T07:21:00.000-07:00

hmm~ today went to meet sy at bb interchange.. go to sch tgt.. LOL..
it was raining lyk hell.. Zzz.. lucky i managed to avoid all e rains.. =D
anyways.. had all e lessons.. so tiring n bored.. omg~ cant imagine hw m i gg to survive wif tis kinda life.. sch life juz dun suit mi.. hais..
anyways.. went to e library wif sy n 2 of her classmates.. michelle n serena..
we played "jenga".. some kinda UNO stacko game.. it was so exciting lo.. lucky i m nt e one whu make e bricks fall.. LOL.. 1st time in my life did i ever play a game inside NP's library "game zone" ah! next time i m gg to go thr to play.. ofcos wif my lovely shang n cutties yee lo..
anyways.. meet sy after my last lecture.. went to meet quan, ang n eng at e busstop outside np.. cos heard tt they r joinin us for dinner.. LOL.. den we went to wm to wait for shang to come n meet us..
went to foodcourt.. orderd our food n started to eat le..
onli shang, mi, yee n eng eat onli.. duno y ang n quan nt eating wif us at e begining..
i asked them n they say kaijie is coming to meet us oso.. n they were juz keep sayin they were eating ltr.. LOL..
i tot they juz wana watch e anime.. so they wana eat ltr.. i duno kaijie is realli joinin us for dinner lo.. so i was lyk "aiyoyo".. Zzzz..
den after we finished all our food plus drinks n one dessert.. kaijie suddenly come out frm no whr.. n den i realised tt we din wait for them.. we started to eat our dinner 1st w/o them..
so paiseh ah guys.. realli duno kaijie is coming.. if nt we will wait for him to come.. den ca eat tgt ma.. cos after u all finish e dinner den u all ent off le.. lyk kinda defit e purpose of meeting up to hav dinner tgt.. LOL..
dunno ya wan go hm tt early.. if nt we wn go n buy tings le.. =S
anyways.. quite long din c ya le.. quite happi to hav a chance to tok to ya.. although ang was lyk keep gen wo men zhuo dui lo!!!! argh~! haha..
after e guys left.. mi, shang n yee went to e coffee bean to hav some chit chatting session.. gals tok!! chatting till abt 8 plus.. we went hm le.. cos quite late n everyone was quite tired n shang hav to go hm to complete her tut as she has to hand up tml.. so ke lian ah shang.. so sad for her.. she was as bz as last sem.!
anyways.. nth much to say le.. gg to prepare to slp soon le.. =)

im feelin zi bi...

2007-04-23T09:56:00.000-07:00

hmm~ juz came bak nt long.. tink 1 hr ago? LOL..
anyways.. went to some talks.. at "PASIR RIS".. omg~ so damn tired.. LOL..
ytd.. 23th april'07.. i overslept le.. i missed 2 lessons! tutorials.. haiss.. tink i hav nt enough slp.. omg.. ltr is 8am lesson.. IS.. hais.. jap lesson.. abit sick n tired le.. LOL.. cos i tink i'll b having a hard time on learning jap.. but.. no choice.. hav to carry on for another 5 more wks exclude e lesson i'll b having ltr.. duno i can wae up ma? but i tink i can ba.. cos yc will b givin mi morning call! lol.. if nt i'll b dead.. 4 hrs of lessons will b gone wif e wind~!
anyways. didnt do much ytd.. so will hav to do mani ltr on~
hav to complete every tings tt i hav nt ye complete.. if nt.. tings will b diff. for mi ltr on..
gona wk abit harder so tt i can relax more ltr..
today feeling quite ok..
but came to realised.. im abit "zi bi" these days..
i dun realli feel lyk toking to mani.. juz some of them i'll tok to.. but nth to tok oso..
duno y.. i dun feel lyk mixing ard.. no security..
will b lyk wad i wan.. b whu i m.. noone can change mi.. noone? LOL.. duno..
anyways.. gota Zzz le.. =)

i hope tt tml will b a beta day~! =(

damn pissed..

2007-04-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

not in a good mood..
today everyting go on quite smoothly.. but im nt happi..
mayb cos wad turns out doesnt seems to b e way i wan..
i juz feels tt everyting is changing..
is it cos tt everyting ard mi is realli changin? or is it cos tt i m e one whu changed?
everyting is nt rite.. juz nt rite for mi..
i feel damn pissed off.. damn lost at e same time..
juz duno wad has happened..
i juz wan to relax! WTF!

v.da bored lo! cannot stand..

2007-04-20T11:41:00.000-07:00

today went out wif e animal farms after sch..
went to orchard.. had THEIR dinner.. n they all acc. mi to PS to look for my sis's bday present!
thx a lot guys.. if nt.. i cant make mi sis bdy a memorable one cos wifou my present, her bday will nt b memorable! LOL.. jkjk..
anyways.. did nth much today acutalli.. but at least we had 2 grp fotos.. tt's e best out of e whole outing for mi.. LOL..
*but tis foto is blured! =S

*all of them were posing handsomely.. LOL.. (acting cool hurhur?)

anyways.. after tt.. we were all rushing to board our last bus or train..
quan n KJ end up took last train wif mi n sy oso.. LOL..
den e rest wif shang went to take their last bus.
but sad to say.. shang missed her last bus.. she got to take another bus n take cab hm.. which cost her 7 bucks.. LOL..
e other guys were safely reached hm by boardin their last bus..
mi, KJ n quan oso safetly reached hm by takin our last train..
but poor sy.. she got to rush lyk hell to TRY to board her bus hm..
but she was v.sad cos she see e bus leaving n she could do nth but to pray tt there will still b another LAST bus for her to go hm.. n she was being watched by her fairy angel.. she managed to talk her last bus hm.. however she was e last person to get hm.. LOL..
shang n sy.. so poor ting.. but tink they enjoy quite lots ba.. =)
anyways.. damn bored.. gg to Zzz le..

*希望明天会更好。。=（